ambitions.....hm...
whn u were small...u always haf dis dreams of wat u gonna b whn u grow up....
well whn i was small guess wat i wanna b???
i wanna b...hm let me try 2 rmbr.....
yupz...i wanna b a police woman...the kind in the special force....
yupz...i tink i watched 2 much of the triple nine series....
althou it wasnt the full reason....
my dad gaf me a toy pistol and handcuffs.....
they were like gifts from heaven...
i had all dis imagenary games set up in my room....

cowgirls chasin baddies...[since i was a girl tt explains the cow girl]
however my ambitions changed thru out the years.....
i wanted 2 bcome a teacher....and the inner doors of my white book cupboard
was doodled and drawn wif markers.....
all those ABCs...and other stuff....

den as i grew up and till now...i wanted 2 own a cafe or restaurant
yupz....it was planned out even.....
but tt will only b done whn i'm rich enuff...
which i wonder whn will tt b......

however the ultimate dream is 2 perform on stage infront of like millions....
but i bet i'm gonna haf stage fright.....nt tt confident la.....
i always wanted 2 sing and bcome a star but hm....
guess my dad and the whole family gonna object 2 it.....
well dreams r dreams..ambitions hm.....up 2 u 2 decide ur own path....

came back from wedding 2dae....
caught in the rain...man it was freezing cold....
went grocery shoppin at causeway point wif my mom....
she's cookin briyani 2morrow....yummiez....
had chendol 2dae....another 1 of my fav drink.....

yesterday went 2 my aunties place.....
played wif my cousins whole day.....
and the cute thingy was 1 of my lil cousin called me his gf.....
i was laughin...so hilarious....he's so adorable.....
miss him alreadi....gosh...
and i went mango huntin wif my auntie yesterday....
after visiting her fren at the home....we saw dis mango tree...
so went searchin some nice mangoes....saw only 1.....

den on the way walkin saw more mango trees
got my self another nice mango....so dere were 2....
the mangoes were realli nice....sweet.....i jus love mangoes......
especially whn its realli cold.....yumz....

todae....was a nice cool chilly day
it was raining in the afternoon...
i snuggle my self in bed.....
read a book wif my radio on.....

the radio had 2 play all those slow and mushy and emo songs.....
gosh....but sumhow it got me composin my songs......
its nt entirely completed la......
shall go work on it like 2morrow if i haf some inspirations.....

gonna meet up wif kim and nad 2morrow......
after a week......hm....yupz...a week is long enuff 2 keep us apart

i was tinkin of bcomin vegetarian.....
but i'm gonna miss my chicken.....
i dont eat meat tt often...tts okie....
and dont realli like fish......
but chicken!!! i eat it all the time.....
how am i suppose 2 survive w/o chicken....
shall tink bout it more.....coz i obviosuly love veggies.....
jus the chicken part.......

P.S.THANKS GUYS 4 ALL THOSE WISHES AND PRESENTS ON MY BDAE OF A DAY AFTER.....APPRECIATED IT!!!!!LOVE U ALL.....

yupz...guys...jus cam back from the madacasgar premiere.....
wif res.....we had dis goodie bags.....lame stuff in it
cept 4 the koko crunch....res ate mine and hers.....
she was hungry....cant blame her....
the movie was great!!!!damn hilarious.....full of weird and crappy names...
love it!!!!

so came back....bathe and all....
took out my bdae cake...given by nash and res.....
THANKS GUYS!!!!its in chocolate......
cut a slice 4 me.......
i ate it wif happiness....a moment of indulgence....
yummyz...its in my stomach......nicey nice.....


my 1st ever bdae cake....YIPPIE!!!!
only nvr blow out candles la.....but still its my bdae cake......
grinning from ear 2 ear....hehehehe

but i got a bad startin thou....
on my bdae...borin....pisses the hell outta me
told my mom gotta go 4 the premiere coz i got free tickets....
and instead of like good go enjoy on ur bdae or at least a bdae wish....
i got myself a scoldin.....wth.....
izit even wrong 2 celebrate my bdae......haish...so hurtin.....

yupz...i went 2 watch star wars.....
amazingly nt a fan of star wars but it was great thou
i tink i only like dis episode.....
the graphics were great....it feels so nice
the fightin scenes were great 2....
i jus love the light sabers.....i like the purple and green ones.....

my eyes were glued 2 the screen.....
and den while wacthin the movie half way thru....got dis phone ringin...
shoutin 2 b picked up....and its tt stupid ringtone...ring ring....
and dis is whn my fren,res happily sae "WAD SEH"......
hahahaha...hilarious.....tt shld haf knock some sense in2 tt person.....
way 2 go res.....eventhou she was fierce.....but hm....
oooo...and i chase some boys away....meany me....
i took their seats.....den dis few boys were askin
was the seat i seatin their seat....
so i yes....and they sae can i move.....
so i sae deres a whole bunch of ppl tt u will haf 2 move...so y nt u jus go 2 the other side.....
hm...so they did....okie i'm being mean...but i'm jus lazy 2 tell my frens 2 move 2...wastin time....

yupz2....nice nice...and i went 2 see res's pet parrot...
he's so adorable.....super cutie.....
damn frenly also....

YAWN!!!!!
damn sleepy.......i dont noe y........
mayb still missin my dream boy....hahaah...shall i go back 2 sleep.....
my brownie cake has fnished in a matter of 3 days........yupz...ate it all b myself
kim i wanna noe the recipe....later gif me okie....so i can bake......

jus finished cookin....black pepper beef....
but guessed nt gonna eat.....later goin out aniwae......
long time nvr see dana and fara.....i wanna hug everi1...
hahahaha..as if i'm the farewell gal.....gosh.....

okie la...gonna update 2moro bout 2nite....
i tink gonna b veri chaotic wif our laughters....

okie...since i was bored...i decided 2 do somethn...
explain where i was goin 2 study...
a lot of ppl haf been wonderin where i wld end up...those who r nt close 2 me....
i decided 2 take the ite route as i cant make it 4 the business courses in poly....
i cant b bothered 2 go in2 courses tt i dont like and end up being miserable....
tt happens 2 ppl who only wanna b in poly no matter wat course they get.....
2 me its a stupid decision...coz as Donald Trump saes...
SUCCESS HAPPENS WHEN U R HAPPY WIF WAT U DO.....
thus i decided 2 go wif my desire 2 do business in ite....

it was a difficult decision 2 do wht i wan and doin it in ite.....
i had objections from dad....sayin it was a waste of time and exclaimin WAT!!!!business
u nvr learn ur lesson.....
i mean business is everythin in dis world.....if u were 2 go check it out......i dont care wat he saes....hes nt helpin me either....aniwae its wat i like and its my future.....

well seriously ite is nt as bad as most of u wld tink....
and u cant get in2 ite if u haf grades like F9 4 most subjects....
i look thru my modules tt i'm takin....
its realli interestin...i haf 2 learn business mandarin....and japanese...
den the usual web publishin..product design....business law...and other lotsa stuff....
i even haf 2 do some overseas assignment....i dont noe wats tt but i guess i'm gonna find it out soon....it will take me 2 years 2 complete....but if i were 2 do well..proceed 2 the 2nd year of poly......

thru out dis 2 years....i also haf 2 face diff looks from ppl
which i cant b bothered animore
i'm so sick and tired..4 wat i haf 2 care wat ppl tink
they dont pay my sch fees or they dont gif me my life.......
its all God's will....and if dis is my fate and challenges in life, i haf 2 faced it.....
dere at last it came out from my chest....*sigh*
tt was a relieve....

1st and foremost......
drum roll plz......[dr...dr...dr..]
THANK YOU 2 NAD AND KIM!!!
dis post is dedicated 2 u guys....
thanks so much 4 the cake cum brownie....
it yummielicious.....totalli....
thank u 4 the hard work of the posters....
hahaha...i love readin it.....
and thank u 4 the ice skatin session.....

i totalli appreciate the stuff u done.....
love u guys.....
extra kisses from me....
MUACKZ! MUACKZ!MUACKZ!
hahahaha.....

u guys were wonderin wat thingy i am crappin bout...
well the things tt nad and kim gave was 4 my upcomin burfdae....
coz probably they cld nt make on burfdae 2 celebrate it...so it came earlier....

had so much fun ice skatin...i only fell 2wice.....
yippie...achievement.....alina had her 1st time ice skatin....
she sorta haf problems but eventualli had fun a bit....
achievement 2 her 2....
claps!!!!

yupz...2dae was moody dae 4 me...but i haf fun la.....
thank u my frens....love u 2 bits.......

I'M BACK!!!
everi1's missing me...whahaha...especially kimmy
she's burstin 2 tell me bout her camp...okie2....we shall meet soon
the msia trip was fun..didnt do much shoppin...coz dere's nothin 2 buy
cept tt i ate a lot...whoa wee!!!!

i had like high tea on sunday...coz its mother's day...
we had it at eden garden hotel...my fav hotel....
the food was great okie....they had lotsa yummy cakes....chocolate cakes....
jellies....yumz...potato soups....and other stuff.....totalli great....
we went on a trip wif outsiders but i noe some of demthou, wif tour guides and all.....
and dere were eye candies on the bus....whahahaha....they were so cute....
guess who????boys agein 5 yrs till 9...so nautie...yupz...they were my eye candies 4 the trip.....
told ya i love kids.....
most of the trip consist of shoppin centres....but since i was jus dere 2 relax and chill....didnt buy
much stuff cept 4 cds....and mags.....

the ppl on the trip were nice....well they were old but they were realli crappy.....
they makes jokes all the time....
i cant stop laughin....cracked me up totalli....
eventhou the weather was bad...it was rainin almost everidae 4 the 3 days i went......
man...shucks.....but it was nice......i still love it.....

THE BEST MOTHER'S DAY CELEBRATED.......

well...i'm bored so jus let me tell u want i normally do nowadays.....
10am...wakes up from slumberland
hits the shower and bathes.......
comes out ard 10.20,gets dressed and buy newspaper and breakfast 4 me and 2nd sista

watched tv while eatin....till like 12.30...dis is whn my 2nd sista uses the com
den followed by me........i wld wait while she uses and reads the newspaper.....
at ard 1 plus...i will check my emails,friendster and bloggies.......
den browse thru launch.com 4 entertainment or play some online games.....

at ard 3 or so.....i hit back 2 my romey...on my hi-5,tv and chilled.....
read books.....and at times jus write in my diary.....till like 6 i wld take a nap
or even hit the com agn.....and 6.30....go bathe agn.....haf my dinner.....
watch tv.......ard 8 plus...infront of the computer agn........
till 9.30 where all my fav shows r on..so i wld watch tv agn.......
till the wee hrs of 2 or 3 am......
and hit my bed.......

tts my life slackin at home......chillin and slackin......
wat a borin life....unless i go oout wif frens....and u will find us in town.....
other den tt.......at home slackin....or at times go over my aunt's place babysittin my cuzins...
my life evolves ard tv,computer and my hi-5.......

p.s. i jus cant wait 2 go m'sia 2morrow....some outin....man...bored!!!!!

yupz...the day of torture 4 kim 2dae....
she's goin on a camp from np...and a future tai-tai like her...she hates CAMPS!!!!
good luck 4 her.....cant wait 4 her return on friday...shall hear coplaints and lameness and her campmates stories......yupz

so yesterday....nad and kim came by my house 2 see my house after the reno.....
cooled 4 dem and thanks 4 the compliment from kim...she said it was nice....
well they only ate fried spaghetti...nothin special....
den we all went crazy...took fotos....had a pillow fight between me and kim.....
while nad got in on video.....hahahaha....hilarious....

they fought over my soft toys which i was plannin 2 gif away 2 my god-daughters......
nad got her the nemo fishy and kim a rabbit.....
after awhile we went 2 westmall...2 chill and saw all dis sec sch kids hangin at westmall
dere were so many of dem....left,right,back and front full of dem....
i tink its the exam period so wat do they do hang ard at shoppin centres like west mall.....

2dae....it was the worst....dere were no electricity from 9 am till like 2.30
so imagine no fan 4 like more den 5 hrs...it was extremely hot in here.....
and i did the most genious thingy....got a cloth and ice-cubes...and dab it all ard my face.....
and dere were no tv and computer and radio!!!
imagine the boredom i was expeeriencin......
it was horrible.....totalli....
imagine if it was war and i had 2 go in2 hiding or sumthn....i am the 1st 2 b defeated.....gosh!!!!!

OMG!!!i'm famished....
been eatin curry 4 3 days...not leftover jus diff type of curries....
gettin sick of it so i didnt ate any 2dae.....
and so i cooked myself instant porridge which obviously doesnt fill my stomach....
so i'm hungry now......hm....shall go fry egg wif onions and soy sauce....

been bored 2dae.....read my diary of anne frank....its nice la...
but 4 ppl who dont read,guess it will b borin coz it toks bout germanand a bit of politic...
not tt excitin but i find nice....shall go hunt more books in my romey.....
i haf an addiction 4 books now...coz it keeps me occupied....

cant wait 4 kim and nad 2morrow........they're comin over coz they nvr see my house b4.....
so gonna cooked dem sumthn...which means i haf 2 wake in the morning and go 2 the market....
so lazy 2 wake up...i feel like snugglin in bed whole day......can i???

my face had a breakout of pimples...its so irritatin...
and painful thou...i hate pimples...but my fault 2....been stuffin myself wif chockies....
so tt causes the pimples.....hm.....

let me tell u sumthn...i love watchin bollywood movies and haf a fav actor 2....his name is shahrukh khan[sha-ru-kan]....he's really charmin and is 40 yrs old but looks like only 30....hahahaha

i also love wil smith....he's adorable....love his latest movie...hitch...coz its funny and cute....
and both of my fav r married and fathers....and they're still charmin....sigh....

tiring day yesterday 4 me....
went 2 my auntie's place 2 send some things
den had 2 babysit my lil cousins....
my auntie send 1 of dem 2 a burfdae party at 2 and went 2 work.... so i'm left wif the other 2.....baby and dada....
they were makin so much noise even whn watchin tv....tried 2 read but cldnt....
got so caught up wif dem...at 3.30 went 2 fetch their big brother from the party....

its hard takin care of children....but its nice also....coz they're so adorable....
but whn they're at their nautiest....hm...hell break loose....
they wont listen 2 u.....dis is whn i shout which i rarely do la.....
den at ard 5.40 their dad came home so i went home takin a cab.........
wasnt bad coz i need nt take the bus.....

came back...i was so tired i dozed off 4 awhile till like 8.30 and woke up.....
now i'm readin the diary of anne frank...i'm quite old 4 tt....like it shld been 4 sec.1s or pri sch even.....but i got no interestin books 2 read....so dere...tts my only choice...am so engrossed in it....

waitin 4 kingdom of heaven....i'm sure its gonna b controversial....trust me....
so waitin 4 the day...comin soon...yupz.....