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#2. Choose 5 person to do this after you completed yours.
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#4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!"then do this.
So, I'll start with:I HAVE BEEN TAGGED!!

10 Favourites
Favorite Color: orange,black,turqoise
Favorite Food: indian,western,jap food!!!!
Favorite Song: Slank-Ku tak bisa
Favorite Movie: hm...gotta be X-men 3 at the moment
Favorite Sport: soccer,floorball,netball,dragon-boating!!!!anything nice la...
Favorite Season: winter!!!
Favourite Day Of the Week: sunday..time to slack la...
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor:sticky chewy chocolate!!!

Current
Current Mood: sentimental......hahaha
Current Taste: i'm having a craving for preserved and sour stuff....hahaha
Clothes: shorts and my teddy PJs
Current Desktop: haywire with all my stuff....weee!!!!
Current Toenail Color: faded brown glitter nailpolish
Current Time: 9:06PM
Current Surroundings: in the hall
Current Annoyance(s): its really warm in here!!!
Current Thought: cant wait for the camps and D&D

Firsts
First Best Friend: i think it was bavahni...coz i sat bside her for 2 years and we shared lotsa stuff!!!
First Crush: hm......firdaus.......goodness...
First Movie: was it rugrats or hollow man???it was either 1......
First Piercing: erm.....when i was in my kindergarden years..
First Lie: cant remember......
First Music: twinkle-twinkle lil star..
First Car: my beetle volkswagen....tts the ultimate la....

Lasts
Last Drink: plain water
Last Car Ride: in a cab to somewhere.....
Last Crush: it wasnt a last...haha..shhh!!!!coz it's on la...
Last Movie Seen: x-men!!
Last Phone Call: from......okie...ooo..fad!!!irritatin guy...
Last CD Played: radja

Have You Evers
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: best friend???hm...nope!!!
Have You Ever Broken the Law: yup...
Have You Ever Been Arrested:nope.....
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: nope...
Have You Ever Been on TV: yupz
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: nope...and kissing doesnt give you aids....

5 things you're wearing.
1. my pjs
2. shorts
3. my black jellybeans bangle
4. earrings
5. underwear

4 things you've done today.
1. went to school
2. ate lunch and actually finished it
3. went to ngee ann poly for a tok
4. had refreshments
5. went to kranji this fashion to browse for clothes

3 things you can hear right now.
1.my tv
2.kak noi sprouting nonsense
3. my typing on the keyboard

2 things you can't live without.
1. my social life
2. frens

1 thing you do when you're bored.
1. on my mp3 and look at my diary

And for the 5 people...
1. alina
2.yuniza
3.nazreen
4.livi
5.yat

argh!!!!i sooo cant wait to have money la..
my mp3 is going bonkers!!!my earphone is going to die on me!!!
wth!!!i cant live with this..
what if...what if i got no more mp3!!!i gotta stick to listening to my discman..
meaning i gotta like burnt my songs into cds!!!!
anyway...school is sooo now getting mundane and much more borier!!!
is that such a word.......hahaha.........
i wanna get a flat tummy!!!goodness...fatty fatty me!!!!
slacked in school as per norm...thats seems to be all i've been doing this days......
then after school....all of us rushed home!!!
not exactly la...me,izzah and hadah went to woodlands....to search books at the library..
but since all of only_usmates are meeting for dinner......
we were killing time lots instead...and went to METRO departmental toy area....
played and fooled around...for about 2 hours...
then we went to the library and did searching and research to no avail..
there werent biz filing books around in the library!!!!
so waited for haisah and yat to finish their business in Creative hq......
was reading all kinds of books....from cookbooks to deco.....
wah......since when i was such a bookwork.......
since like ever!!!i love books la.....
after that.....waited too long we eventually went to al-ameen at woodgrove....
all 5 of us walked.....nice walk la..
now i very tired la...hahaha...
ate and crapped......our growling stomachs were filled...
weeee!!!!!
nice fun day!!!!

izzah at work fiddling.....


man...i look such a good gurl........


izzah going crazy!!!


yupz...it's a nice place to lepak at woodlands!!!


the peeps who came!!


the blacks!!!!


our growling stomachs were satisfied!!!

went to school....and saw haisah with nice rebonded hair......
then got to school....and was informed of my CA marks...
which i didnt study.....but obviously i passed..
thanks to me who paid attention.....luckily..
weee!!!i got 44/50 la....cool shit or wat?!?!
hahahaha...........
weee!!!!
then after that slacked in tps lesson...which is my tourism module.......
ate in school...and went off to ite tampines...
to talk bout the campfire and stuff......
slacked abit...den me and khai decided to go to bugis..........
wanted to search and survey our DnD dress or costumes......
met up with my dearest twin sis...nazreen!!!
missed her lots.....ate dinner first sponsored by rizal...
thanks for that too..
shopped at bugis point.........den at bugis street.......and at bugis junction itself..
man!!!my feet are aching la.......
walked around and around..
and going crazy over choices of dresses...
i'm sooo gonna try to be retro....
i love retro la....its like damn cool..........
trying to find all those stuff.....hahaha.................
argh!!!!!cant wait..coz dressing up at my sis's place.....
then we both twins can dress together and go crazy and go there from there together....
weee!!!sooo cant wait la........

hahaha....
i'm smiling widely....i'm sure do..
even if it was a few minutes....it sure eases the burden of missed......
i heard the lil laughter..i could imagine it all........
just thinking bout it....make my stomach go woobly doobly with butterflies flying.......
i thought i was dreaming but i sure was not...
i feel like screaming and go all crazy.......
hahaha...coz i'm sure am smiling like a gundu........

went to lyn's place today..
to help her get ready for the wedding...
okie...she's nt getting married...but she's going to an indian wedding..
so help her up with the hair and makeup......
she sooo loook like a doll la...
alina!!! you sooo needta put on makeup often.....like with eyeliner!!!!
then after meeting up with alina..
rushed down to lot 1 to meet up with abg...
ate dinner with him.....
and we slacked,walked2...
then....whoosh_________
watched women's futsal at Lot 1 for 2 hours...
it was sooo cool la...
i was hooked on to it..
love the bishan team.......weeee!!!
the matches were much more exciting then worldcup i tell you!!!!
it was sooo fast and more cooler techniques and skills..
and kicks and goals.........
whoa...what a night!!!
enjoyed myself very-very much........(",)

alina before make-over

alina after makeup and hairdo

all the makeup stuff

alina with the punjabi suit and accessories

my dinner

and lastly....the futsal match!!!!

well-well...the weather suits my mood in the morning la....
it was raining...thanks alot for the start of the day...
hahaha....yupz...was sort of early for school....
coz basically i could not sleep la...baciness...
but school was sooo slacked!!!!

so after school...met up with rizal...
he was in bishan for some business...
so me,jannah,darlz,aini and hadah accompanied him to eat.....
then off to buy bubble tea at junction 8 area......
weee!!!mocha ice-blended is sooo addictive,can?!?!?!
hahaha...too bad no pearls only...tootsy heads la.......
then went back to school for the camp briefing...
and who did i saw????
emil monster!!!!my sayang........
weee!!!missed her to bits and pieces...
was shouting at my top of my voice when i saw her...
missed her la...she bcome sooo girly...so cute...sooo adorable..
emil wear skirt seh.......
cute seh die......*doinks________

hahahaha...camp briefing was cool....
my group for this term is.....TAZMANIAN DEVIL!!!!
ultra coolness....
kudos to my darlz...nie mesti keje korang...
coz i love Tazzy.D...
my group members were also very energetic...
we got the performance in our head......
and we got cheers going pumping...i hope...*crosses fingers_____
and the flag on the way....with ideas on.......
coolness la!!!!

then after briefing...
rushed to marina square......hahahaha..
went with my darling nisa!!!we went to search for her shorts la...
she got this really bright contrasting orange shorts la!!!!
alamak....darlz i think i at kallang river can spot you a mile away......hahahaha
then we went around-around looking for my dress la...
saw a really not bad looking casual nice dress...
deciding on whether to buy it or not.....for dnd..
can make it look grand.......
then after eating dinner and stuff....
walked around to CANDY EMPIRE!!!
largest candy shop in singapore i think...the kind of candies you would drool....
then i showed her the places i was brought to the other time..
and she agreed at how sweet and romantic the places were.....
walked to esplanade and showed her the route i was brought to...
haish...you make my heart melt la...tt "recipe cake"
but well...i wont fall...hopefully not....
now darlz understand my situation........
i thank her for being there for me.....for listening to all my blabberings....
esplanade is where we talked and crapped for tonight....
i love being around darlz.....she's a good friend and the best darlz la....
patiently listens to my crapz......hahahaha
*huggiez to darls!!!!

another day went pass...
i'm still feeling blue....
didnt manage to pull myself together for school today...
i was in a very bad state.....
i just broke down yesterday......
i dont know why.....
the whole night was horrible...
it felt like hell in my own world......

i woke up with a major pounding headache.......
and tear-stained eyes...
msged yat to inform her i cant make it today..
it's been really-really bad.....
but i still wondering the reason behind it all.....
haish.........
i wanna have a short escape to tanjong beach....
it's the only serene place i could think of......
white teddy has been the only best companion......

i'm seriously dont know whats wrong with me......
i'm nt my usual self..
i cant explain it either...
i'm okie in the day...but when night falls..
all my emotions just gotta settle down...and its all negative....

i hate negative feelings.......
okie...i think i've been thinking bout money problems and stuff...
and the other mushy feelings.....
and other-other-other feelings...
i dont wanna talk bout it...coz i cant seem to talk..
when i talk its all blabbering schemish stuff....
shit!!!
i can seriously feel my tears rolling out from my eyes.....
i seriously cant explain stuff...
so stop asking me why,okie???
if its emo me...then its emo me...
i'm still the same outside and infront of you guys...
but only inner me knows me best......

-le odio-

I just feel sooo weird all over...
i dont know what i'm feeling....
haish..........for the very first time i let my feelings take over...
damn it.....it must be that time of the month again.....
i let my tears run through my skin.....
all the songs bout stuff....getting more in touch with my other self....
the emo me.......
it's weird...really weird........
i dont feel like going for D&D....what if it was another emotional night..
i dont have the cash thou to pay off...haish........
goodness.......i feel sooo down really....
it's really been a hellava period for me.......
and i dont know if i have the time to meet up with my gurls......
there is this insecurity i have whenever i hang out with my gurls.....
coming from ITE...and living a complicated life of restrictions and conservativeness..
it is very-very hard..
when you hae different views.......
i became mellow nowadays...omg!!!
hahahaha.........i guess.....keeping quiet all this while make me breaking down more......
often.........and when you are at this point of time in your life......
that you see your true friends appearing..
who actually take their time to listen to you...and not pretend to listen......
who actually make their way and time to see you....even if they were busy....
they will listen to your craps.........and wont jeer at you or gave you heck-care solutions...
they wont make you feel so low by being sarcastic.......
they are just there when they need you......
it's a long list of being a true friend...
but you can feel it and you know it when you meant your true friends.....
hahahaha......why cant love be that easy huh???
i know i am blabbering whatever i am thinking now......
but guess what....whatever i'm blogging is for my understanding and not for yours...
i just venting my insecurities and anger and sadness and whatever nots.....

Ungu- Sepert Yang Dulu

Tiada guna kau kembali(it's no use for you to come back)
Mengisi ruang hati ini(filling the space of my heart)
Semuanya telah berlalu(everything has passed)
Bersama lukaku(with my broken heart)

Semua yang telah berlalu(everythin has passed)
Antara hatiku dan hatimu(between my heart and yours)
Takkan ada cinta(there will be no love)
Seperti yang dulu(like ever before)

Tiada guna kau berjanji(its no use for you to promise)
Untuk setia menemani(to stay with me forever)
Hatiku yang telah terluka(my heart has been wounded)
Karena dustamu(bcoz of your cheatings)

Semua yang telah berakhir(everything has ended)
Antara diriku dan dirimu(between me and you)
Takkan ada yang rindu(there will be no feelings of miss)
Seperti Yang dulu (like ever before)

another post i shall submit...
my heart is speaking of its misery...
i feel uneasy yet composed..
only inner me knows the most.....

why i feel weird nowadays......
it feels really sick being held up in a complicated love life or something......
i feel sooo uneasy getting to know bout it...
trapped in a web....
feeling breathless...
why o why must this happen to me???
a question asked....not a answer given......
why you gotta enter and disrupt my life..
i thought i could lead a life lonely for awhile and get my mind off abit....
but somehow things changed and got me trapped in a web......
i knew something was not right when you told me stuff......
i didnt wanna be in your story....
but it just turns the other way wrong........
and now i hope everything gonna be fine between you and her....
let me get on with my life at least...i dont wanna fall any deeper or fall at all......
argh!!!shit..........i just hate it now....

see la..jajat....told me my love life always complicated..
now then i realise it too.....
hahahaha....can collect up stories and write a novel eh.....
battles of a teenage love life....
*doinks........

awww....missed the baby gurl allison la......
her chubby hands and legs and her toothy smile......
having CA tomorrow...and i just finished my revision...
taking a break and shall continue after this.....
been having my dizzy spells again..
argh!!!!scary la...all those blurness taking place and nauseous feelings.....
it's really-really scary........
i thought today was sunday when i woke up in the morning...
hearing the thunder.....it makes me wanna go slumber in my lala land......
weee!!!!!
but i thought back and woke up with a jolt...
it was monday morning!!!!
time for school...
went to school with haisah.......
school today in admin lesson was tense......
mrs yeo was in a bad mood...
eeks....no meesing up with her la.....

SC bbq pit yesterday was fairly okie...
i missed my kor so badly la....screamed when i saw him walking towards us...
really missed very badly!!!!
argh!!!!and he patted me on my head and said...good girl....take care...hahaha....so kor la he...
then of coz my other bros came...all these vickie,ali,douggie and fai!!!
heard great news from fai...
weee!!!very happy for him indeed........
i hugged darlz lots!!!!!
tazzy setan and cookie monster combined!!!
the mr and miss retro was cool...
gotta bully haziq la....and it's sooo cool..........
they look sooo cute la......we dress them up in toilet paper...newspaper and trashbags....
shall upload the pics soon.......
ate and talked bout stuff....
chatted and catched up with our lives.........
hm....not a bad night indeed.......
thanks jan intake 05 for organizing the bbq....
really appreciated alvina and gang......
it was not bad after all......
and of coz....my grp...PLAYBOY!!!
took the best group again....
weee!!!
finished up a whole bottle of sparkling raspberry juice....
and had other goodies like bbq marshmallows.....
hahahahha:)

well.....hm...a nice place to lepak rite...
if you guys really can take your time off...
is tanjong beach at sentosa.....
it's really quiet and conducive......
nt crowded at all....
and you can just relax and enjoy the breeze...
it was sooo perfect....
and seriously the scenery there and stuff...
can make a person doze off to slumberland......
i love tanjong beach!!!!!
another place was the far end of esplanade stretch....its really far end...passes the big bridge and so on......very quiet too...and really near the water.........cool rite(",)
and at last i manage to get destress!!!
thanks to my 'recipe cake'...
had a really nice and cool day off...
i need tt some quiet time...so didnt make plans with any friends...
sorry for all the rejects and nt inviting anyone to accompany my quiet moments.....

i hope everything's gonna be fine......


Only a smile to keep me going.....
hiding behind my shadow of happiness.....
a step a day to walk thru the darkness hoping to reach the light at the end of the tunnel....
making sure my life wont crumble........
i pray to HIM for all the goodness....

If one day i were to breathe my last....
i hope it wont be painful and make it fast....
let a tear roll down and nothing more...
so as the heart wont grow too sore....

Writing this out of the blue.....
making sure it's not a clue....

Just let it go...
just let it go...

Goodness...my CA is next week and i've yet to study properly....
hahahaha...nana is such a slacker this term la......
but luckily i managed to do my revision my teacher gave us today......
hopefully....i can still maintained my grades.....

watched x-men 3 on tuesday.....
i know it's a bit late...but i wont want to miss watching the movie
it was really great........i sooo loving it....
but the air-con at marina is damn bloody cold la.......
but i still love the cinema lots plus the new cathay...
weee!!!!!

soccer fever is on...but i rarely watch tv nowadays....
felt very lethargic nowadays....been having stomachaches too...
hehehehe......too much of food in my stomach la.......
ooo...did i tell you i love the merlion and the fullerton area at night!!!!
the scenery is sooo serene and i sooo loving it.....
i know it's a bit jakun la....but well.....what to do.....got no romantic guy to bring me go to these wonderful places......

ooo...ever wondered if you could have a splendid bf that you could do stuff with......
like just doin out of norms stuff like going to the zoo...and just hanging out...
or backpacking together...when both of you are having hols......
he going out of his way to prepare you a candle lit dinner at a restuarant...
and after which planned a night picnic at a quiet place somewhere with glass wine and stuff...
ooo....just glass wine but inside is grape juice la....hahahaha.....
wont that be cool???
it's hard to believe there is romantic guys outta rite......
but truth is....i've heard and seen la.....
it's really cool......

just day-dreaming for abit.......
next week full of SC events..
got dance practice and there will be a meeting and briefing on the SC camp....
this coming saturday is the SC bbq pit...
and you gotta wear somethin or bring something that is retro.......
hahahaha....like some theme party....
whoa....july is camp day.....
i got 5 day camp.......shall not reveal why izzit 5day camp.....

haish..........
why must i be the person looking after people......
am i gonna lose another great loved 1.......
i dont want to....dont make me feel this way......
it is creepy.......

i might be a person who is happy and jumping about....
but no1 knows how i feel........coz y???
i'm a person who rarely shows her attitude......
even if i were angry......i would just keep calm....unless my temper went up to the maximum.....
why do people face problems........
why?!?!?!
when human beings face problems.......they talked as if the world is gonna end the very next minute....they start feeling miserable and think i'm the only 1 on planet earth going thru all this shit...no1 understands me????

well....i used to feel that way...
it's called human nature...but i dont dwell on it..
i put it out of my mind and move on with my life.........
i dont have time waiting on the edge of the line....
i dont have clocks freezing thru space for me....
to stop specially for me to recover and stand on my bloody two feet.....
it just got me thinking.........even if 1 day i lost my loved one.....
the very next minute even....i wont shed a tear....just like years ago...whn my grandma dies....
coz i got me...i needta move on with life aint it...
yes...you needta drow in sorrow...but dont make it tt deep that it hurts you like a saw cutting you up and you can feel the pain whn it cuts thru u.......

haish....who ever say being a human being was ever easy in this place called world or life.....
gosh...btw..i'm not specifically shooting any1 in paritcular...
dont take it to heart...
it's just random thoughts i wanna shoot in my blog....
if it make you stop and think bout life.....that's good...........
dont let your problems get the hold of you...
problems are there to test you...not to make you feel defeated.......
not to make you feel weak......it actually make you stop and think of your mistakes or your doings......

i do have my own share of problems.........
secrets of others and problems of others.....
hahaha...it's hard keeping quiet aint it........
it's been getting worse each day....
i dont see people smiling anymore.........
i dont see people laughing their hearts out........
it's all so fake.......
so fake.....

oo...and i sooo dont like it...
when you think a person is gonna blow up...
and you cant handle it.......you just gonna well...shrug it off and gone.........
tt's sooo nice isnt it........

okie la...goodnitez peeps........
anyway.....i hope you guys dont feel guilty...
i'm nt shooting any1 in particular...
but if you feel the pinch...i'm sooooo sorry.......

argh!!!!i'm growing fat.......
*doinks_________
okie....i think you guys will be thinking again....
ooo...man she's on it again......
well....i cant help myself la....being gurls vanity is their ultimate top priority on the list...
i needta sooo lose weight....i lose weight and i gained it back quickly..
that's really-really bad.......gosh!!!!
okie....shall go back on my diet....with lotsa lotsa plain water.........
no more junkies....i needta sooo cut down on that...
but i'm craving chocolate ice cream and famous amos cookies.......
argh!!!!!!
and i do wanna sink my teeth on cheesy chessy pizza la....the one you can pull and strecth the cheeese.......weeee!!!!tt will be sooo cooolness la.....
B!!!!!i have money...you hang out at my house again.....and we watch movies and i go ordered pizza!!!!!then can slack at my room and talked for hours..........

anyway......went to a wedding today...
one of my cousins whom i was close to long time ago.......but we cut ties due to some stuff....
family problems and stuff...that sort of thingy....
anyway me and 2nd sis went for it...
and today was a bad day...coz of the heavy rain.....irritatin la....
luckily my bangs never got messed up.......
hahahahaha_____another vanity attribute....
okie...so yea....reached there...all the shaking of hands...and questions asked.....
where was my mom????
blueks!!!!hahahaha...okie so most of the aunties were shocked to see me.......
yups...very-very shock.....
i wonder why...i mean i used to see them whn i was small la.....
okie...its been years....that explains it all.......
saw my lil cousins there.....love them.....
dada is soooo getting fatter..i squeezed his stomach and pinch his cheeks.......
he went 'ouch...pain la..'
sooo cute la my lil bf.........
adorable to the max......
school tomorrow..............argh!!!
luckily it's only a few hours.......weeee!!!
and out for dinner before the lovely nenas fathi...books in for police........

weeee!!!
today was seriously superb la!!!
i went out with abg and livi...
met them at cck at 1pm today....
i thought we were hanging out at cck.....
then they said they wanted to go town.......so yupz...in my slackiest self...
we went there....never sae earlier la this ppl.......
baciness!!!!
but nevertheless...got treated by livi....and it was really fun...

then bumped into fathi and his nana at cineleisure......
yupz...so it was a case of nana met up with nana.....
hahahaha...coolness.....
then bumped into sanwan and his girl......
sooo many people la......
wanted to watch movie....but in the end,all the timing sucks....
so decided not to......
went to hmv instead and livi got himself his cd....
walked all the way to far east...while deciding on where to eat.........
there was tekka and bugis and stuff....hahahaha..
so in the end we just ate at at far east.....
walked to scotts coffee bean after that....
and slacked for almost 3 hours.......
i had regular caramel and carrot cake.......
weeee!!!!happy happy gurl!!!
these two buggers were cracking up jokes...
and telling stupid stories....
but i still love my these two....so fun la hang out with them la.....
from my tired mood to my hyperactive mood...
i think coz of the caffeine la....
but i still love it.......i was laughing very hard..
its been sooo long since we hang out.........
they're the only peeps that can make me smile and laugh despite my bad mood......
i think coz they know my weakness la.....
then went off home....coz they wanted to watch the world cup...
its england vs i dont know who.....
and miraclely....orchard was not that bad....plus the train..
it's a saturday night....i think coz it's the world cup fever la...
coolness!!!!

argh!!!
i'm very tired la......
the bonding session went really well today......
all of us had fun........and i soooo loving it........
whole day was raining or drizziling...but nothing stopped us.....
we still continued playing despite the rain and mud and so on......
SC rockz!!!!!
all were water games....so all of us got wet by end of the day...
i didnt noe walking on mud on the field is soooo nice...
hahahaha...i'm sooo serious bout it....coz i took my shoes out and played barefoooted.....
yupz.......i dont mind bout the mud and stuff...it was really cool.......
there was the treasure hunt which was damn hard...
my group got 2nd last for that...but there were no points....
only for the water games..
in the end my group merged with group 2....we managed to grab the 2nd place!!!!
weee!!!!!

went off with nisa,fir and jannah..
we got milkshake after that......
just soooo lip smacking goodness...
weeee!!!!!

gonna meet up with abg and livi tomorrow.....
missing them really-really much!!!
oooo...i'm having a craving of western food...
my kind of western food......stir fried asparagus with salt and pepper...
with chicken and gravy and mashed potato....ooo...and plus baked beans!!!!!!
it's been a long time since i last cooked la......
goodness........
no more time for myself also.......
that's bad la...oo..i'm craving for the new york pizza also la at TM...
hahahaha.........nana is having her cravings and appetite back!!!!

i just came back from ite tamp.......
the excos there had their meeting...so i was just sleeping at the couch while waiting for daddy...
tomorrow will be the bonding day session for my SC bishan...
i wonder how it will be.........anyway...had another termination of an SC member....
goodness....it's getting crappy in here...
i dont see the need to do it infront of the whole council...
it was really awful......gosh!!!!

i'm really sleepy...but somebody has a bad problem......
and i'm trying my best to help him........
i'm sooo gonna be dperived of sleep soon.....
mish livi and abg lots........hopefully can meet up really soon......
i hope to meet up with the OR peeps on monday before dear fathi books in for police NS call.....
missed my peeps really badly..........all the songs are making me dazed in and out and thinking of OR all the time.....
missing my bitches in crime too!!!
awww....we sooo needta party soon bitches......
weee!!!!
i'm still feeling a tad weak....got the nauseous feeling and stuff.......
trying to cope really hard with my life now.........

goodness!!!!
i'm gonna miss ITE Bishan after graduating la.......
sooo badly......

*Pricked Me________

it was just another normal day in school.....
was really tired in the morning,slept from BB to bishan....
wooots!!!!the train has been relatively empty since the hols...
thats cool.......more empty seats la....hehehehehehe

did nothing much today......
went for classes and i dont know what i did...like no class like that..
just did some tutorials and well...class was like slacking session la.......
went for lunch and talked crap.....
the gurls, ina,izzah and haisah.....tried brainwashing me to donate blood la today.....
okie truthfully i'm afraid of injections...so donating blood means needles..
i hate them to the core la!!!!so i was saying No and more No..
in the end they managed to got me geared up for donation.......
yupz...i was excited plus scared.....coz i seriously wanted to know my blood type....
so well...off to the student's hub.....there were many people there....
but not all can make it to donate blood...
in the end out of 4 of us...i was the only one donating blood...
ironic right.........coz ina and haisah were on medication or just recovered from illness
and izzah is yet to be 18...so she didnt get parental consent and plus she was underweight...
so yea....i was the only 1 healthy and meets the criteria..
it's cool being 18!!!!

so yea...after completing the form and doctor's check-up...
i was told to get a drink 1st since i had low blood pressure......
then off to prick my finger for blood test and stuff...
that was painful man!!!!imagined a staple poke your skin.....
gosh!!!i didnt know that was much more painful...
after that went to the make shift beds and lied down...
i practically make friends there...eventhou i sooo dont know them.....
hahahaha......then i was chatting with the nurses....
was trying to calm down my nerves la.....
i asked questions and stuff when they did antiseptic spread on my skin to clean the skin....
joked around with kyi kyi, 1 of the nurse.....
before i know it the needle was in me and the blood rush into the bag...
whoa!!!!coool......and i had this like ball to squeeze...
so everytime i squeeze the bloood came out more...
that was sooo amazing...so i kept playing around with it........
and after just 5 minutes my bag was full to the brim!!!!!
weeee!!!!!

waited and rest for 10 minutes...
and i ask fadly for orange tape.....
its actual orange bandage....so yea...he bandaged the area...
it was cool....it seems like other peeps who donate seem pale and unenergetic after tt
i was still jumping around and laughing after that.....
i even joked with yamnie my monitress....saying i want to donate another bag....
hahahaha...she was sooo cracked up la..... "you must be joking,rite"
i feel good donating blood.......it's really cool...and not painful at all...nurses really took care of me


Thats my hand and the coolest orange bandage!!
I soooo love it.....(",)

-SaLvAge Me Fr0M My MiSerY-

Rihanna- Unfaithful

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company

Hes more than a man and
this is more than love
the reason that the sky is blue
the clouds are rolling in
because I'm gone again
and to him I just can't be true

and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
a murderer

I feel it in the air
as I'm doing my hair
preparing for another day
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
as if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A liar didn't have to tell
Because we both know where
I'm about to go
and we know it very well

cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
a murderer

His trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this Anymore (anymore)
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
a murderer (a murderer)

the last few days has been very-very-very depressed....memorable and loveable experience
with the OR peeps....and ppl...
i just miss them badly la......weeee!!!
hahahaha...last night was the so called last gathering before aizat goes for nation duty call
hahahaha....i'm sure he's botak now!!!
jajat botak.......(",)

talked to them...bout everythin under the sun...
from my disappointment in netball......to everything...
yupz...netball is a flop.....and yea thanks classmates for the 'support'
i'm sooo appreciating it....*smirk!!!
but it was a nice talk.....thanks for all the encouragment and the care and concern

well...today...restria fauziana or my B...
slacked the whole day at my house la...
she just went home at 8 just now...
we were slacking and eating...
crapping and watching movie...
cracking at stupid jokes in 40 days and 40 nights....
it's m18 btw....
hahahahaha...but it's damn hilarious i tell you...
and sweet and just whoa....hahahahaha.....
and yea...i talked to my B...bout everything...
till my dillemma....
and i listen to her also....
weee!!!!!
fun day slacking with her la....
i love you restira fuaziana.....hahahahahaha
*dots!!!!!
*in your head....*in your head.......