HAAPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!!
it was a disastrous occasion at first.......
coz of the heavy rain.....and that means the celebration was held in the multi-purpose hall..
it was a very sucky place to hold performances and stuff........
but well...that was the wet weather programme.........
and my script had to been changed again for the very-very last minute.....
it was really a scary moment but thankfully i was calm....
yes!!!for the 2nd time i would proudly be announcing....
i did emcee-ing for this year TEACHERS' DAY CELEBRATION 2006!!!
hahahaha.........
and i am soooooooooooooooo elated and happy and all jumping for joy...
everyone congratulated for my job well-done.......
weeee!!!!
and mr. zhou from CEMTA...a talent scout organisation in ITE for dances,music and anything arts.......commented that for a still beginnner stage emcee...i had a powerful vocal...
that could be develop and then i could become a fulltime host.....
weeee!!!!!!!
that was such a really supportive comment.......
i was shocked to hear it...but i was really-really happy!!!
and teachers were coming up to me and saying it was really good.......
omg!!!i'm just sooo speechless..but i'm glad that it happen....
i'm even being offered emcee-ing if there were gonna be events in ITE alumni...
whoa!!!!!!

and we celebrated a mini party with mrs yeo our class advisor........
and then i had sorethroat...
hahaha.....
too much projecting of the voice...
gosh!!!
i'm sooo ecstatic!!!
hahaha....

darlz...plz dont be sad aite...
they will be back......
plz smile and dont get too upset..
hope your hp is in good condition also........

if 1 day i could fly to moon....
i would love to go there...
if 1 day i could sail across the ocean blue....
i would love to sail it with you....
if all my dreams were to happen in 1 day....
i would let the seconds passes by like hours..
so i can cherish every moment of it.....

But somehow dreams are dreams...
but without dreams a person is as empty as a shell....

if time could be rewind...
would mistakes be corrected...
but time can never be rewind...
coz it passes us and doesnt come back......

if 1 day, i were to say goodbye.....
would i be able to see my loved ones...

Argh!!!jus been back from school.........
exhausted la....
i cant wait for teachers' day to be over...
need the rest la....
i wanna sleep and sleep...for the weekends.......
weeee!!!!!
hail to the bed!!!

had the rehearsal just now...
full dress...but apparently i wasnt in full dress..
normal for nana to 'obey' rules...
well....they said my emcee-ing was good......
thank goodness..but i'm still having the jitters...
what if i just messed up on the actual day or something....
and the dance..
gosh!!!
i dont know when they are gonna drilled it into their heads...
they needta loosen up........
ekkks!!!
i dont know what else to do..
well..up to them....whether they wanna do their best or not...
if they cant take critical opinions....well...up to them....
cant be bothered anymore.......

gonna sleepover in school tomorrow.....
weee!!!
hahaha....i dont know.........
sometimes i'm going thru...all the stuff wif a zombie body..
i might be all hyped up..but emptyness inside....
tt sorta thing........

anyway..kak noi just got herself a guess handbag instead!!!
sooo...i'm sooo gonna be sharing it with her...
weeee!!!
i think tt person should go treat her more often....
hahahaha...
*evil*...hehehe.....

hm...payslip is in...
but aint tt much...shall save it up....
and spend as lil as possible....
hahaha........
ate lotsa nuggets today...coz i asked kak noi to buy for me and cheng ho...
we feasted on it...yummylicious nuggets with curry sauce.......
weeee!!!!
and i'm being pampered.......coz i need not do the sweeping and mopping of the floor today...
he did it 4 me....
hahaha....
exams are round the corner..
for poly dudes and dudettes.....they're almost at the end or of have already finished exams
welll...i shall go and say.........
go PARTY!!!!

teachers' day in another few more days.......
i've got the celebration going on..
being the emcee and dancing...
weeee!!!somehow excited..
but i dont know what to wear?!?!?!
how?!?!?!
neeedta go survey already......

am addicted to cadbury chocolate boost.......
eating it almost everyday......
argh!!!had twice today......
fattening la...
needta control my temptations......

ooo...must mentioned this..
fad boy u look as if you're gonna go tunang on fri...after fri prayers..
he was wearing white glossy baju mlayu...
so tunang-ish...
hahaha...damn funny la.....
and he was all paiseh to enter into banquet at woodlands....
hahaha...bluek!!!!

i want to buy more clothes....and more...and more!!!
but no money....
how?!?!?!
hm...must start working sunrise more often........
hehehe...
it will be sooo cool!!!
coz got more pay..
hahaha......

not alseep yet....bad-bad gurl..
hehehehe...cant sleep la..
am becomin a nocturnal breed........sleep late...wake up late..
go school late.....skip SC duties...
but okie..i shall get my ass up okie...4 school on monday..
and reach at 730am....for morning duties...before my head is chopped to pieces...
but i'm hyped all for dance.......
it's the best thing to do nowadays..
and i'm stuck to buttons by pussycatdolls..
the opening song is nice la.....
can dance slow and steady....
ooo....working tomorrow.......
but with cheng ho.....so i thin i wld have fun....
after which at 8pm....rahno coming in....
so i dont know how its like workin him...never been on shift with him la.....

apparently...kak noi bdae is coming.....
and she's gonna get a gucci bag from some1...
aint fair la!!!
hahaha..........tts ubsurd discriminition.....
i helped too with my god-daughters...
and she got herself a gucci bag......
hmpf!!!!
eeks...missed my lil darlings...
1 is growing up too fast 4 me to catch up.....
and becoming a bit 2 rough for her age...
hahaha...tomboy la......

met up with the babe just now,restria fauziana..
went to get a drink at coffee bean.......and we lepak for awhile....
luckily she live quite near to me...a phonecall away.....
hehehehe......
apparently....she is craving for her sheesha.......
which i've yet to try....
i think we shall go soon okie.......
if i have time and mayb after my exams or somethin aite.......
aint a promise...but i will try my best...
ooo...and she's in love with her new motorola hp...
its really cute..and black.....

okie...i'm gonna be in chilled mood now..
cant be bothered with you know all those romance in the air..
but i'm really happy for my friends who are happily attached.....or on the verge or whatsoever
hehehehe....all the best dudes and dudettes......

-make me go boozy-
blueberry yum-yum......
lickin away the aftertaste on my lips...
get it sticky .........
let it linger...
let it stay...while it lasts......

-get it shake-
make me awake.....
because of your sake...
i shall do it again....
oooo...
weee!!!!
work it!!!!!!

Gosh!!! woke up late today...
so i rushed and took a cab down to school for the umpteen times..
eeks!!!money busted.......
but i need to maintain my attendance or not i will be debarred from exams....
but so far this week i've been attending my core modules lessons...
and busy with the teachers' day concert......
and work....but next week i'm not working coz my schecdule is packed with school activities...
the dance committee from SC is doing a tad better then previous...
i love the dance coz it's like been awhile i've chereographed steps......
it's gonna be the last time mayb to perform...
a few more months to go before graduation....
and next step to poly...
insya-allah....

OR 07 is back on track....
meeting coming up this 2nd sept....
and cant wait to go out with kak noi again....
we're gonna go gatecrash this new restaurant at arab street.....
but before that i needta settle all those bills and stuff....
awww.....shitty.....

thanks for the hugs guys and all those listening ears..
and the visits to see me....hahahaha

ooo......recommendation to try the cadbury chocolate boost....
it's sooo yummylicious and melt in your mouth chocolate...
sooo nice!!!!
there's 1 waiting at home for me to indulge...
weeeee!!!!!!

- i wished i could turn back times-






-it all seems better yesterdays-





-i miss all the good times-

A new week started..
i was working yesterday with azry...
yupz..nice guy...who doesnt smoke...
yay!!!at last a co-worker who doesnt smokes...
so longer chats to entertain me...
weee!!!
slept really late yesterday...haish......
it's getting stressed up in my head...
haish...i'm getting more emotionally distraught...
all these thoughts running thru my mind......
i wish i could just curl in my bed and sleep or somethin.......

haish...the only thing that make me busy and not think of my problems is dancing......
had dance pract just now...i guess it's improving....
i think........i finished the dance steps and i didnt make it tt hard...since we have the rest who dances along..and poor zizah who cant bend tt much due to her backpain....
hahaha.....i'm still trying to sharpen my moves.....
argh....hahaha...my emcee script is still yet to be done....heacdache!!!

i sooo hate staying at home......
it's much more pressurizing than being in school...
i would just sit in my comfort zone infront of johnny(computer)
and just surf the night away.....
yupz...becoming a computer geek...well....mayb......but just an internet freak la........
in any case...being wift johnny is comforting coz this is where all my music is...
and it's just in my own world....
it does makes me remember some memories that are hurting...
but.........
there are some happy memories........that i wont forget......
haish......i just cant help it right........

my week...has gone from bad to worse........
it was one hellava ride for me......
i even had sore eyes.....due to some reasons.......
it was all sore and red.....i didnt even go to school on wednesday....
tt means no work for me too..
thus i was back in school today...had SW....
but unfortunately......i had to trip and fell...while we were running....and were doin the step run..
so i injured my ankle.......
it was all so painful...but i gnored the pain and continued doin the step run...
and did the step jumps and warm-ups...
but it aggravated the pain.....so i hadta to finally rest my ankle........
what a irritatin start to everythin....

my blog got some problems...haish...
the skin...i dont know whether it's nice or not....
hated it actually........
but i try to get somethin else soon if i'm free.........

had dance prac today....
i finally went coz guess...they needed some help....
after my ankle was sprained....i still went..
fad...came....so he helped me sharpen the moves abit..
hadah...i hadta pulled her in......
...at last she gave in.....
went home ard 7 just now....
and i was on the train back...
till it reached woodlands..
a sooo unexpected person just had to come into the same cabin as me.......
it's been years since we met.....
and i just cant bring myself to look at you when you're just afew metres away......
haish......yew tee came...
you went out....and both of us acted as if nothing happen...
but when the train moves......i hadta look up...to see whether i was dreaming.....
and you look into my direction also.........
i knew i didnt make a mistake...
it was you all along.......

gosh........hahaha...
i just cant stop thinking bout everythin that has been happening......
i cant sleep this few days.......actually couple of weeks.....
if i were to list out everything........
it gonna hurt me more....
it was a crazy week....tt got me all wrecked......
i wish i could escape everything.....

argh!!!!
my tummy is full!!!!!
ate lots today...chicken chop with rice and fries and soup.......
ate cheng teng........and popiah.........
my teh peng and ice lemon tea......
nt to forget my jack chicken montero tusco...or something like tt.......
wah.....i was damn full la...when night falls.......
met wafa at food culture...just smiled only la...busy telling crappy stories to my friends....
ooo.....and we sat there....freezing and eating...hahaha...
i ate lots today coz i felt almost like fainting when we reached cck....
tt was like already 2plus in the afternoon...so my sugar level was damn low already......
but i only ate ard 4 plus...coz we went to bukit panjang first to send my cloth for baju kurung 4 tailoring......eeks.....scary la...my low blood pressure is getting bad....
been getting my dizzy spells often nowadays....

i didnt get my twinkies(twiggies)....cant find it at 7-11 bishan....
damn baciness(shitty)....
miss them la...i wana eat them.........
cravings-cravings-cravings.......
i think my monthly emo-ish period is coming......
hahaha....all those cravings and food intakes....
bloatedness is the most horrible thing a gurl cld experience......

oooo...i just got myself new eyeshadow...
happyness...its sparkling and its nice..
and got myself 3 more new bottles of nail polish...
buy 3 get 1 free...but nawa took 1....it was hot pink for her....
nicey-nice.........i'm loving it!!!
tht's my girlie side la....
hahaha......amazing...i'm talking bout make-up and nail polish,rite..........

come boggy with me......
give it up to me....
dance dance whole night............
coz u got me in a daze........
ur illusion make me sway...
hahaha..........
restria fauziana....i have your song,gurl.....
*huggies gurl.........
i love you too(",)

came back from work today...at 8am..
it was really tiring yesterday night.......
i had to clean the mr.softee,mash potato machine,take care of the cashier....
mop the floor and clean the toilet...hahaha.......
okie..it sounds like a maid's job......
mayb coz i was just tired yesterday...didnt have enough sleep before work.....
but someone gave me canadian pizza...
yummylicious......coz canadian is just like few shops away...neighbours la.....
and the guy we call him pat..is a good friend of 7-11...
hehehehe...and he knows me well.....
so he said...next time when i worked...he get me nicer pizza...like something with chicken...
coz it was veggies pizza yesterday.....
so yupz...make my day yesterday....
thanks to pat.......

and i had to do paperwork on my own.........
see la...always people pamper me...so i never got to learn how to do paperwork..
but i managed through...with the help of kak ida......
and thanks to cheng ho....he taught me yesterday before he was off work....
and whole night was chaotic..
since there were uncles and bros drinking outside 7-11....
ppl got drunk...and it was really funny...
the rest teased this red-shirt guy......coz he was really drunk....
i was laughin la.........all those helicopter noises...and airplane...
and the red-shirt guy started doin the actions and so on......
hahaha..........
kecoh-rable......and then around 4++...they started goin home..
and they leave the poor guy sleeping.....on the chair....
but 1 of them woke him up....after awhile...and all went home...
by then i was bored to death with nothing to do la........
nomore entertainment....hahaha....
sunrise shift is cool..i shall do that often when it's fasting month......
since it's also my hols...
weee!!!!!

gosh...i'm still widely awake at this freaking to the dawn hour......
and i'm off to school tomorow...wth!!!
hahaha...nana is sooo nutty nutz..........
anyway.......


here's the question...
what is your wildest dream ever??

my answer:
i always had this dream bout shooting my own videoclip....with my suitable partner of coz...
singin to an R&B song.....or soul.........
moving to the beat....and wif tt sort of storyline thingy.......
with chemistry between us..
coz if u aint haf tt....its like sooo erlacks(eww)......
thats my sooo ever wildest dream.....
weee!!!imagine with my bling-bling..........
ultimate coolness..
and stiletto heels.........
whoopee......

and another would be riding on my white horse........
jus gallopin away...beside the beach........
and my horsey would be called....'diamond'
hahaha........
it sounds weird...but yea...diamond it will be.......

hanya aku yang pasti apa terserat dihati.........
hanya aku mengerti gelora yang bermain didalam diri ini...
aku mungkin tidak dapat menahan sebak...
tetapi ku pasti....aku harus tabah.....
dan tidak harus mudah menitiskan airmata......

salahkah aku berdiri pada prinsipku....
salahkah aku mempunyai ego......
jangan kau sebagai ihsan bernama lelaki.....
berfikir kaum perempuan lemah sekali.....
jangan kau berpegang pada pandangan cetek itu......
kerana ia berbedah........
tidak seperti dulu lagi.....

apakah harus aku lakukan......
aku begitu keliru sekali.....
bagai sampan terumbang-ambing di lautan ganas........
bagai burung kepatahan sayap...
aku dalam keadaan tidak tentu arah......
ku cuba mencari jawapan...
ia tidak berada di depan mata......

tawa,tangisan.........
sendirian.......
tiada huluran......
rindu,kesepian.......
sendirian.......
tiada sesiapa....

abg khairul is here in Singapore with his gf..........
so i accompanied him and his gf...to tour s'pore since yesterday........
was only home ard 11pm.....tired feet......walkin all over singapore....
just the famous area...and thanks to abg...he brought us to boat quay and clark quay...
goodness..........my feet almost felt like giving way...and collapsed........
it was the 1st time i met kak fida....abg's gf.....
so yea...initially she abit susah to bual......but after awhile...like today...got to know her better....
and yups...i did shopping..
eventhou it was like 2 days out enjoying...
there were lots on my mind.....so didnt enjoy mysef..
i wish it was hols...i dont have to go school or somethin...
can sleep in bed..huggin teddy to sleep......
gonna miss my abg..he's going home...friday morning.....

anyway...i'm happy with my tourism results...
didnt expect that i would score...coz i studied really last minute...
but alhamdullilah (thank goodness).....i managed to pull through with good results......
am really happy bout it......
hopefully for the finals or end modules...i can get and sustain my results.....

ooo...should go watch click...
it was really hilarious.......... the ending was jus superb....
i would really give a thumbs UP for this movie...
it was sooo funny and touching...and just sweet........
i cried la....gosh....
i think most gurls cried during the touching part........
awww!!!!
4/5 ratings.......

it was such a huge mistake......

how in the world does superman got into the picture......
goodness.....thinks knows everything...and thinks as if i got something goin on with superman...
like wth!!!
cant be bothered....if i have to be silent....i rather be....it's much more comforting......
since the ignoring take over......and love it that way....then just let it stay okie.....
if i dont get you....you dont get me either.....
if you cursed so much.......cursed all you want.......coz i never hold grudges.....
if you want me to just shut up.......i will shut up........

argh!!!!
pisses me off......
biler org ckap .....tak bole terima...
i always have to start asking and then you start telling me...
dari dulu sampai sekarang.....tak pernah belajar to talk things straight to the point to me...
if you want to communicate and venting through the blog.........
well....okie.....go ahead.....

argh!!!!i cant wait for my guitar........
hahaha...i want it to be black and glossy...
weeee!!!when the hell is my pay gonna come.....12 aug is like damn slow...
and end of august is like 3 more weeks.....
but i dont want august to go...coz tt means exams are here!!!!
hahaha.....i sent my baju kurung for custom-made sewing....
but i forgotten to go bring my other kain...
so muz give to haisah.......so she can go again to that nyonya......
hopefully it turns out nice ah.........

i want sushi!!!
and sashimi........haish....cravings yet again.......
busy-busy month......
hopefully the match is on this saturday...
then i can see soccer again.....hehehe.....
i'm in love with indonesia songs....no!!!wait...
i'm in love with glenn fredly songs...hahahaha......
i think thats where my indonesia roots come in.....
did you know how indonesia peeps are very passionate and romantic and loving.......
especially passionate bout the arts area.....
yupz-yupz....i love arts culture...all those music and dance.......
but yet again i sometimes cant believed that i'm an indonesian.....like seriously....pure...
coz daddy family was from java......and i still have family there......
and daddy knows how to speak java...cept for me thou...
i cant be bothered to learn......
and mommy...is like anak mami....
mixture with pakistani blood....
i'm a mix breed...hahaha....
my nose is sooo painful...as if its bleeding.....
argh!!!!

migraines and chestpains are back haunting me..
i was actually hiding the pain coz i didnt wan people to get all loving and caring...tt kinda concern stuff.........
i think the only person who saw i was holding back my chestpains was khai...
she saw me massagin my chest slowly......in the train...
.....couldnt hold the pain la....
haish...i wish i had my pay now or something....
am really tired-tired-tired and exhausted....
trying to work as much as i can...and balanced my schoolwork.....

met the two peeps....
on my way home....nash and restria......
they thought i was workin today...gosh.....
hahaha....but well lepak sekejap je...tak lamer.......
heard the lame and crap stories and jokes...
gosh......it was ridiculous la..
but my mind was in a daze......lotsa stuff was in my head....
problems and other stuff.....
didnt concentrate much........
hopefully get to meet abg tomorrow...
missed him lots la.......poor bro...i didnt manage to celebrate the bdae with him...
i was working.......from 11pm-7am...
yupz...the sunrise shift.......
haish.....it was kinda cool...coz andrew guide me thru out the night......
taught me stuff.........and it was cool...
he bought me supper and we chillled through out the night...
eventhou there werent much customers.........
there was stuff like cleaning the machines and stockin up the chiller.........
and i hate chillers at night...bloody cold la.....
like -0 and below....

ooo...i had like a nice talk with adibah.....
kak adibah was cool...we talk bout love stuff....
hahaha...over dinner......
i had yummy chicken rice.....and teh peng!!!
yummylicious!!!!

the day...went all sucky...
coz i woke up late.....was damn tired la.......
skipped one of the lesson...my keyboarding lesson...
which i dont like to go anyway.....
so yupz..woke up at 8am....rushed here and there....
off to school....called kak irda otw.......
settled my work with her...she's replacing me on 9aug....
reached school in time....
and when i entered...........mr.chua was talking to the class bout the CA..
he said it was badly done....i really wonder what's my grade la......
despite that...lesson was as per normal.......
there was a small gig....at school.......
but the band wasnt that great....the drummer was a bit sucky....
he was missing the beats and stuff....
zombie was turning out like a total zombie.........
went off after that...
but we got waffle for izzah...she was craving for it....poor gurl..
she was fasting yesterday...and didnt get to taste the waffle.......
rushed back home..changed and was out again.....
hahaha...almost slept in the bus la otw to tamp.........
hehehe...happy-happy gurl..........
went to pasir ris park...and saw some uncles playing takraw..........
watched the sunset......i love sunsets la.........
and there's a saying that peeps who loves sunsets remembers small details and stuff......
they have better memories......
and i'm much more stable now off and on....
much more balanced...hehehe....
bluek!!!!!!!!!!

ooo....i'm in love with glenn fredly la...
i love him since like years ago...he's one of a good indo singer!!!
and i'm stuck listening to his songs.........
but its ultimately hard finding his songs......
eeks....and i'm stuck listening and watching his songs on youtube........
recommended songs by him....
-terpesona feat. audy
-when i fall in love feat.dewi sandra
-akhir cerita cinta
he's such a romantic person...i can soooo fall in love...
weeee!!!
but too bad he's married with another singer,dewi sandra...
awww!!!!
but they're such a cute couple....hehehehe.........

Tourism CA was today...
i studied till quite late yesterday...but most of the time i was online......
hahaha......but well managed to understand the whole concept on tourism.....
kinda okie...when i studied...but the questions on the paper were kinda confusing....
you have to be smart to apply the correct answers....
gosh......i used two foolscap papers....when never in my ITE life i did....when it comes to CAs....
anyway...lessons were mostly cancelled today....
so it was such a slack day for me.......
after school......went to get bubbletea at the S-11 area...
i love my oreo chocolate ice blended...
yummylicious!!!!!
had the chocolate waffle also........
it was sooo crispy cooked...and thick...so that really filled my stomach....
the chocolate was really nice and melts in the mouth kinda thingy.......
argh!!!!ijust love waffles.........
hehehehe.......
ooo..yesterday went to arab street to get my lining for the baju kurung.......
gosh they charged $6/meter...
damn ex la.....so i bargained for $20 for 4 meters...
actually at first he dont want to give....he was like no...other shops also same price.....
so i put on my angry face...and sour look...
then he said nvm....i take $20 only.....
weee!!!!my bargain session was successful...
i'm still trying to figure the design for my baju kurung....
i sooo dont know what to with it....
ooo...i saw nana on S'pore Idol...hahaha....
ooo....the song from akmal...this anugerah winner.....ku menanti...
is sooo currently stuck in my head...
it's such a nice song with nice lyrics....hahaha......
she was sooo happy la......if got chance tomorrow i shall go distrub her...
hehehe......
ooo...i didnt know there was sooo much office politics at 7-11....
gossips and what-nots.....
i shall be a neutral party and just not side with anyone....
cant be bothered...i just want to work and earn something so that i can have extra cash.....

I'VE BEEN TAGGED!!!
hahahaha......

-the 6 WEIRD Stuff bout me-

1)i cant stand spicyness....but i still love having spicy food......

2)erm....i soooo hate running...like mundane running...but i love sports that has lots of running around like netball,floorball,ultimate frisbee,SOCCER!!!!

3)i have to sleep with my checkered red and white blanky....its a smelly blanky since young(",)

4)i cant sleep w/o covering myself with blanky no matter how hot the weather is and covering my eyes too......or not i cant sleep....and i will wake up in the middle of the night....

5)okie....i get really hyped-up when i'm tired.....unless it's really unbearable lethargicness...or not i'm like an energizer bunny!!!and you can see my facial expression all dull but i'm jumping around making noises.....

6)i dont like eating meat cept for chicken.....i dont eat fish.....cept for certain boneless fish....which i almost turned myself into a vegetarian.....hahahaha....

the 6 people who have been tagged!!!!
-ALINA
-NASH
-NAZREEN
-RESTRIA
-YUNIZA
-AND TO WHOEVER WHO WANNA DO THIS!!!!
hehehehe.....