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2011-12-31T12:05:00.002+08:00

It's the new year eve!!!
such an eventful year is going to pass again...
may the coming year be blessed with all the good things to come..
amin!

2011 is such a short year for me!
can't believe its gone in a blink of an eye...
we are still going strong..alhamdullilah...
may there be a better future for the both of us..

and planning his birthday surprise is such a headache...
hahahahaha....but alhamdullilah as well it is finally confirmed and ready to go...
weeeee!=)

2011-11-22T00:14:00.001+08:00

I really love kids...they r the moost
Cuteest beings on earth!!! And thus i really miss Sam!..he has went back to
Indo and i dont know when he will be back....but really2 miss that kid alot...argh feels like ruffling his botak head

School has sort of started for me...alhamdullilah despite the really stressful days...i have managed to pull thru...and its almost ending..soon its assignment and exam day....

Its been almost 2 weeks that we did not wemt out properly....and i really miss my bucuk sooooo much....:(:(

2011-11-11T21:08:00.002+08:00

I loves my jackets, caps, shoes, bags...
i love my accessories...
i love my nail polishes!...

and i soooo want to have a jacket collection..
but i cant seem to spend lately...haish...

i cant wait for my varsity jacket or my baseball jacket..=)!!!

2011-10-30T20:44:00.002+08:00

I loooveeee you MR Panda Po!!!....
i love my foot massages from you....
it feels freakingly good...thanks for relieving my achy achy feet....

i love you for your caring persona..
i love when you pamper me....and feeds me...
or kissing my on my forehead when i'm sleeping...
there's soooo many gazillion reasons to why i'm loving you so much...
but being you is why i love you!thanks so much for giving my life back...

2011-10-19T20:54:00.003+08:00

Music Accompanying: KCI & Jojo~ All my Life

I am a very practical girl basically..
very mellow...very emotional if it comes to me spending alone time...
i start all this reminiscing moments...those good memories...
and listening to my favourite songs...

i love heartfelt chats or talks..
whether if it was with the bf or friends..
i just had another heartfelt talk with one of my bff aizat..
it was a random fb chat again or sms or whatsapp...
a frienship tt started with hatred coz i always fought with him due to clashes of ideas..
but we become the best of buds!

i hope my great friends will be the best god parents.....
if anything ever happens to me or akbar..i pray hard my children will have a thousand more loves cherished upon them.....

im blessed for everything masya allah.
syukur alhamdullilah....
thank you everyone......my bf, family and friends!

2011-10-13T22:04:00.002+08:00

It's been ages since i've last blogged...
coz i've not been using the laptop and crazily damaging my iphone with tweets..tumblrs..instagrams and fb..and lotsa other apps...
it's such an addicitive way of life nowadays....

well..who sae couples dont fight...
me and akbar just had the biggest fight ever...
it almost jeopardise the whole relationship..
but alhamdullilah we're back on track..
hopefully things get better with each step.....

i just had to blog coz it gets my mind working again..
thanks to anuar zain accompanying on youtube....
deep down i know what is it like to be in love....pure innocent love..
nothing to brag bout to the world...problems are kept to ourselves most of the time..
trying to support one another as time goes on....
it's just bout us.....

hopefully one day we will move on to the next chapter of life..
slowly but surely...
ku berjanji kerna cintaku....

and the best part....
i must admit i have quality friends.....
be it my gfs....or my guy friends...
u guys have been awesome...from the bottom of my heart....
hopefully by end of the year a step closer to achieving my dreams...
amin!

thank you love for always being there for me...
without you i wont have my life back.....

2011-09-17T11:20:00.003+08:00

So the ITE gang is back on the track...

yeay!!! jumps for the ultimate joy....

after all the years of fighting or missing in action moments..

we have settled our differences grown up and forget the past..

and it gets worse now coz when we fight we're bolder with words..but the other peeps would jump into the wagon and set things straight....

so it does not worsen the situation....and the fact is the friendship is very precious and losing one another is hard....

with the higher technology influences...we are able to communicate in a group now and its way much faster!..

thanks to whatsapp!=)love it to the core...coz its FREE!!

so while we were chatting the topic of relationships came upon...

and thus how to always ensure that the relationship is ongoing...and firey...

so there's this point which is to always flirt with your partner...

never forget that flirting does not stop after u guys are together..

it's get hotter when u actually flirt with your own bf...

trust me! it works like magic!=)

i have alwaes love flirting with akbar...its really hot!=)!

sooo yea sharing relationship tips in the chatroom was hilarious...but it was fun...

but listening to fathi blabber bout his relationship was okie..too much details for us to noe! hahaha.....

these peeps have alwaes make my ite days memorable and treasurable..

been great friends eventhou they or me cock up and our friendship deteriorates but no matter what we havev done..

we alwaes knew that when 1 is down...there's alwaes support....

hopefully we stay true as friends in the future years and always stay strong....

i cant wait for akbar to meet them..coz they're dying to know who is the guy who has managed to tame me down and loves me wholeheartedly..... <3<3

2011-09-04T20:23:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya....2011=)

it's been awhile since ive blogged...
raya has been a tiring week...
but it was great....

am watchin I am legend now on tv..
love the show coz it has Will Smith in it...hehehe...

the fact when i was alwaes thinkin if ever there was a war...
how will u react..
i have alwaes knew that akbar was alwaes the protective boyfriend..
and he wont let any1 hurt me...
and once they do he freaking hate them...
i do feel protected and thank god for tt...
the thought of not having akbar by my side is the scariest feeling ever...

it's going to be 14th month sooon...
weeee!!=)
may more months to come for us bby!!=)
hearts u lots...now and forever....

2011-08-17T20:47:00.002+08:00

U noe sometimes humans can never run away from temptations and addictions...
it is our sin of a lifetime tt all of us can never run away from..
from minor to major...
from a temptation and addiction of a minor chocoholic...
to a major temptation and addiction of a alcoholic...

thus we are human but will we be forgiven for the major sins...
hmmmm! to each his own.....

jus wanna sae i love kids!=)
i can never live without them...they will alwaes be my sunshine...

this teaching career has been playing on my mind to it after i fnish study or before..
hmmmmmm such a headache....

2011-08-05T14:12:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i just feel like quitting...
with all these non stop one aft another..
it's taking a toil on the emotion baggage....
its hard trying to stay afloat at times....
i gotta be always strong...

i question everyday when is all this gonna change for once....
to jus shine a lil bit of light on both of us...
i dont potray my problems to the whole world..
i dont need to...
i dont need my bf showing mushy stuff on the internet...
telling everything is going to be okie....i have my own backbone....

just let us pull thru....pls...
it's killing me and giving me sleepless nites....
im thankful for everything but i jus needed a better life....
jus let us b strong to face this....

2011-07-31T20:45:00.002+08:00

I love the month of Ramadhan....
it's really great trying to conquer the heavily challenged month...

the best part is always the ambience of Ramadhan..
the beautiful maghrib when it's time to break fast....
and it's the 2nd time i'm celebrating Ramadhan with love...
may this month be a better month for both of us=)
i cant wait to go for bazaars with you....
look for clothes.....get my daily cravings done...
or just our simple break fast moments......

I love you boyfriend...!=)
muaaacks...

2011-07-20T14:19:00.002+08:00

I was thinking bout the past jus a couple of minutes ago...
and as usual this thing jus struck my mind...
it was a remark passed by all my exes of whom some are still in contact or not...

they mentioned that if one day im married...
pls dont forget to invite them....
pass them my wedding invitation card and if god bless..they would come down...
lols! i didnt realise it till i was jus stoning into space and you know when random thoughts of a million things passes by in your mind....

despite all the heartpain ive gone through..
when they mentioned that, it means they do wish for the best for me..
despite all the heartbreaking moments they have managed to make go through....
i guess that guilt lies in them...and they prayed for my happines in one way or another...

hopefully..insya allah..
if my fate was written to get married soon..
insya allah i will..
amin..=)

2011-07-06T21:34:00.003+08:00

In a few hours...when the clock strikes 12!
Happy 1st anniversary babyboy!!
muuuuaaaaccckssss i love you soooo much...
the relationship was tested in every way imaginable...
may we grow stronger with each step taken...as stronger as ever....
may our relationship be true....always till eternity..
coz true love will never die....
it's just you and me...

2011-06-30T20:56:00.002+08:00

So IPLC had its family bonding session yesterday.....
karaoke at workplace....how cool is tt?!?!
it was limited for malay songs but we still managed to sing lots of cool songs in English....
i managed to sing my ching chong song...
and listen to all the wonderful singers in the department.....

work is ok only tt i dont like to face irritating cranky patients...
who are unreasonable...
feels like slapping them seriously....
hopefully it gets better overtime...it's almost my 3rd month here..
and next week is my confirmation week....
needta have some sharing session with the superiors...

My BFF baby bro celebrated his 20th bdae last Saturdae..
omg! so fast 20 alreadi......
hahahaha.....see him booked out from camp is like orgasmic feeling..
miss him soooo much=)!!
soo proud of him.....=)

1 more week to my anniversary omg!
how time flies seriously..
i freaking love you my bucuk bucuk boy!
only i noe how manja u are with me...when no1 is looking...
muuuuaaaacks!

2011-06-03T16:43:00.002+08:00

When I first embarked on this relationship with Mr Akbar Osman..
i have never tot much or expected much from him...
i stayed on coz i didnt wanna look for love again...and just bear with him...
he is definitely not easy to live with mind you....

but as it's reaching the 1 year mark soon..it changed my whole perspective on us....
the relationship tested us both with lots of rocky headstarts...
it wasnt a blissful relationship.....
we always have frequent arguments...and the thoughts of letting each other go...
but despite all, and of coz our freaking egos too..
we stay put and tried our best for the relationship to really work....

it has been getting better with each passing day...
and i hope this relationship last till our last breath.....
it never felt this good before...
the yearning to be with you gets even more addictive....

it was opposite for us...ppl get tired of one another after a few months since their honeymoon period ends early..
i think our happy journey starts from now....
i thank god for letting me find you and opening my heart to you...
it took me 4 years to realise and lots of mistakes made in the journey..
but it makes me happy to go through all the hardship before finding you...
coz i appreciate more than what most wont....

it has been a great month for me!
thank you for making it happen for me...
my 1st year having a proper bdae celebration with my bf..
and it makes me love you even more!...;)

2011-05-23T21:35:00.003+08:00

2 more days to graduation and my birthday=)!

hehehehhe....i dont really feel the enthusiasm of the bdae yet...coz i dont noe wats in store for me..
2ndly, i dont noe how it'll turn out...
hmmmmmm=)....but yea hope its going to be really pleasant....

love has been great with each passing day...
he has been ensuring it effortlessly and i'm proud of him..
muaaccks!!!

2011-05-19T22:25:00.003+08:00

I was really disappointed that it was twice in a row on a same day...
haish cant blame him..but its just freaking effing unfair...
everytime he gets sick at the wrong timings....
but he doesnt get sick during other events...
i am just freaking pissed off!!
ergh!
and i thought at least a good conversation could cover up the 1st disappointment but it got worse...
the best part was he just did not pick up my calls so that i could check on him..but decided to just use the msging system...

and another thing...generally ppl dont look at ur good things u've done so far..but 1 tiny mistake they jus look at it with a manifying glass....

i just needta let out the steam.....ergh~! and what i do best is blogging...
i dont care if ppl read this coz its my personal space...the only place i can vent out....
and i hope to be respected in that sense....
ergh!!!

i need a punching bag soon or something!

P.S. dont forget to put a mask or wear a jumpsuit to disguise urself...it helps soo very much...

2011-05-16T22:42:00.003+08:00

The only reason i watched performances of my friends......
it's because i dreamed i was just like them doing it.....on stage..
the difference between us..
they do it live infront of audience...i do it live in my head infront of imaginary audience......

2011-05-16T22:15:00.001+08:00

I just suddenly feel sad........

2011-05-16T20:31:00.002+08:00

When i was small...all i wanted to do was perform..
it was something i always wanted to do so....eventhough i had a very high level of stage fright..
i did one performance in school...
and i wanted to perform more...
if only i cld do it...

tt dream of performing or having my own band...
or a duet in Rnb...like coooool only ah...=)
i always wanted to join competition but yea i didnt have the guts to..
or anyone supporting me...

nak sing can...
haish......

2011-05-12T22:22:00.000+08:00

I miss him!!=)...

suka banget seh...mau dekat hari graduasi....

hehehehehe...

thanks for everything love..
it's beyond words..truthfully..

eversince i started working...it has make me to learn to be much more humble..
seeing things in my workline...
it really touched my inner feelings....
i get really happy upon seeing children..and to hold one is just soooo nice=)

My next motivation list
1) Learn a simple 1/2 magic trick
2) Try to save as much money..
3) Get a new hobby!

2011-04-25T22:15:00.003+08:00

Here's my motivations of achievements I wanna complete probably by this year or next year:
1) Car license (my aim was before 25, on track)
2) My own personal smart phone
3) To eventually take a plane for holidays
4) Start losing the kilos(am working on it!)
5) Getting stable in life.....

I have nothing to lose but yet to gain.....
I shall be focusing on this.....the aims...
priority on baby....followed by true friends who have been there for me through out the years....
i'm still the same...just having newer responsibilities...
having you by my side..was a blessing in disguise...i'm blessed and i'm grateful for everything..
amin....=)

2011-04-23T21:31:00.002+08:00

I just feeel kinda pathetic at the moment....
that feeling of dread of the next month is here again..
i get emotionally unstable during this period of time...
coz things doesnt seem right for the past couple of years during this particular month...

plus other things i'm not feeling too comfortable with...
i jus get emotionally touchy and sensitive.....

2011-04-22T23:03:00.002+08:00

You know sometimes gals or guys have their mini fan crush on their favourite celebs...
i have a crazy fan crush on Indo celebs! i really do...
i just find them awesomely cute..i have this crazy crush on accents too..
the extra reason i go gaga over foreign celebs....

but i love listening to Ungu! it use to be peterpan/radja..till they stop producing newer albums..
i listened to Ungu and i cant stop listening to them eversince..
further more...their lead singer is uber-uber cute~
Pasha is just gorgeous and the thing is I have a fetish for guys who wear specs...
he does!!! how cute is that....=)~
oooo Pasha...*blows kisses in the air....

i wish i was living in Indonesia...
they have soooo many mini concerts and stuff..
it will be sooo fun isnt it=)

2011-04-19T22:35:00.002+08:00

you know they always say...you have like an anthem song for your wedding..
something that signifies your love or something....
i have a few songs....in my mind.....but i guess the most significant song that always remind me of you.....that i can tear, everytime i hear the song....is from ungu-tercipta untukku....

it will never change coz i believe strongly in the lyrics very deeply...
i like the original version as well as the version of rossa and ungu...but i guess the original has a better tempo to me....=) but emotionally wise the rossa version pulls on the strings of my heart more..... hahahahaha...

the song just never fails me.....

2011-04-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

i cant put a finger on how i'm feeling right now...
it's been week 3 at work and weekdays for me are sooo boring...
it was worse when I didnt work coz everyday/nite I hadta wait for <3 to get home so that i can hear a glimpse of his voice....
it gets worse when i started work....we are soo busy with work...the phonecalls may not even exist at times coz I'm too tired or he's too tired to talk.....

we meet once a week..which is abit sad for us...
and Sunday can be tiring for him....i can sense it everytime we meet....
he needs more rest and not getting as much...i do pity him every week....
i just hate the feeling that's all.........
i wish it was better....for us....
or at least different..

it doesnt help either when i miss him more everyday
and i wish we have more time.....
am i getting emotional or is it just a normal reaction.....

2011-04-14T21:50:00.002+08:00

I think it's kinda scary when i think of marriages and stuff like that....
however it sort of exciting when u hear ur friends are getting married thou...

soooo i have a young colleague of mine who is getting married to her ang moh bf...
but yea...when i hear of it...my heart beat really fast....coz i got scared suddenly.....
but somehow i sort of feel really excited...

gosh..this is really scary....isnt it....
i am madly in love with <3.....the thought of him always make my stomach churned with butterflies and gooey feeling...=)

now is 2011...i've got 3 years more before the big day=)

2011-03-31T16:28:00.003+08:00

some ideas of my ideal house....
preeeeeety=)!

always settle your quarrels before you sleep..
it gets better that way....

2011-03-27T00:18:00.002+08:00

I realised that as a kid..i've never seen baby photos of me celebrating my birthdays...
i've never seen a birthday cake as well..
its kinda sad isnt it...

anyways i've been freaking looking around the website....
and there's no tasmanian devil birthday cake..
boring or wat!!!

i guess i'm the only one who loves a tazzy D...
it's not common to see any1 liking the tasmanian devil cartoon...
it's soooo adorable thou..
and i love it to bits....
i wanna have a tasmanian devil birthday cake...
but where to find in SG leh???

2011-03-26T18:55:00.002+08:00

I'm going to start working soon.....
well hopefully it's gonna be a good stable job to build my portfolio...

one thing is hopefully i get to save money..
thinking bout the future is exciting and abit scary at times....
hmmmm....
and the best part!!i'm getting older by a year in 2 months time...
and getting my diploma cert at the same time..
it's soooo exciting!!=)....

gosh totally cant wait for it....

2011-03-21T21:58:00.001+08:00

I just feel like crying..
its soooo uncomfortable..
my throat is so pain i can literally feel like taking it out ...

gosh...it's not a good feeling at all=(

2011-03-17T23:06:00.002+08:00

After the results....i've gotten today..
it felt sooo nice..it took me 5 years to finalise my dream of a diploma...
i had to take the longer route..but it was great..
i've made plenty of great friends along the way..
it maybe just a diploma to you guys.....
but it means alot to me..
coz firstly i had to take a longer route....from ite and then to poly..
my dad couldnt care less...he doesnt really take note of anything...
i've paid for my education all 3 years by myself...
taking up bursaries and grants and such...
struggle through diploma coz i'm not the brightest student...
i catch things abit slower than the rest...especially in maths kinda subjects...
thus all through the years and struggles..
this diploma means a lot to me!!! =)

i may not be lucky enough to take a degree....
like most kids...but who knows in the future i would=)...
take a baby step at a time...even if the degree comes in late maybe 10 years time..
i would not miss that chance....

to <3!
despite sometimes being irritating and frustrating during the course of exams..
but you have been the most greatest,best,motivating person to push me to finish my exams
and study well=).....
i don't know how i'll survive without you..coz i've got no1 to turn to when i was at my breaking point....
I love you with all my heart=)!

2011-03-16T16:42:00.001+08:00

Let's partaaay tonight....
gonna dance tonight to all my fav songs=)!

2011-03-15T15:19:00.002+08:00

i've alaways wanted a furry pet..
like a cat or rabbit.....
but it seems this family of mine is hopeless with animals...
one is scared of cats...and mommy doesnt like furry animals in the house..
boring!!!

so i've told <3 i wanna have a pet at home...
our home....
he told me hamsters are fine!
but then again hamsters are small....
and yea i probably squish them to death...coz i cant see things that are cute!
like baby...coz i'll start pinching them here and there..and biting them..
sooo hamsters are too small a pet for me....

so here's another animal i wanna propose..
they're furry....bigger than hamsters...
they cant jump like bunnies...and <3 wont give me my rabbits...
soooooo why not guinea pigs!
pleassssh....
at least i can hold them with my two hands..
look how cute they are;p!!
pleaaaash.......................................with hot fudge..extra fudge...whip cream and plenty of cherries for you!

2011-03-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

God i miss him alot...
2 nights wasnt able to hear his voice......
and we only meet once a week...
haish........
it's sad that he has to work late..
feel so tired..
not enough rest...
i just wish i can do more...

2011-03-12T15:33:00.004+08:00

This indonesian child actor.....
is the freaking cutest boy i've ever seen....
soooo superbly chubby...
thick lips...
long eyelashes...
omg!!! super cute rite...

i want my kid too be as cute as this can?!!
hehehehehe

and the truth is..
my awesome cute cousin aufal..
was as cute and adorable..fair and chubby just like this...
i use to kiss and bite his cheeks..
and give him tight hugs....
and now he's 15 years old..
effing growing up....

same or not like the star actor...abit only...???

aufal wish u were still small and dont grow up.....
now cant carry you around...or pinch ur fats coz you're thin already...
now i've gotta listen to your gal problems and your rugby matches...
hahahahahha...how things change...

2011-03-12T01:31:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just wish i have my own life to live by
without curfews or any1 to bother me asking me what time i'll be back home...
it's not as if i talked to my family that often to be back on time....
i just dont see the point..
i get irritated when every1s at home..
y bother giving me curfew......

i cant watch tv till the wee hours....
i cant do this i cant do that...
whats the fucking point!!!
fucking cheebye la seriously....
fuck your fucking life if you guys are boring...
i dont know how long i can be as patient...

ergh!
i think its the hunger that makes me soo angry...
i've been burping the stomach acid...
and it's not pleasant...
i cant sleep yet knowing you're not home
i'm not blaming you..i understand it..
just yea....

it's not a good week...
i'm depressed day after day
with low finances..
fucking boring days at home...
fucking irritating people at home..
and jus yea fuck it!!!
errrrrrgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-03-09T14:41:00.002+08:00

i love balloons soooo very much...
those metallic and eclectic colours...
the burst of colours in balloons are just superbly nice!
and yea i wanna have like a big bunch of helium ballooons....
at my birthday party.....so that we can take photos with..
but i knew balloons will be a no-no...
since the boyfie is just super afraid of them...

it's very very sad....seriously...
hahahahaha...gosh look at that super gorgeous aint it....
simple and nice=)!

2011-03-06T23:32:00.002+08:00

It's going to be our 8 monthsary already...
it is not a smooth sailing ride for us..
seriously there were challenges faced and at times
there were threats of calling the relationship off....
due to fights and heated arguements....
we never say break up..
but we always end up forming sentences that meant breaking up...
but obviously we didnt....coz i'm madly in love with him...

he has never been shy showing his love and pampering me in public....
never fail to cheer me up despite being such a pain in the ass at times...
he loves me for me...loves snuggling up to me...smelling my hair..
kissing my cheeks...pinching my fats...
and just being around me...
i love him alot and it hurts me to tears everytime i think that what if...
anything happens without him in my life..

i'm greatful you're mine..
Happy monthsary baby...
i love you soo much and you know that well too....

2011-02-25T23:09:00.002+08:00

I treasure my friendships truly and deeply..
friendships are one of the happiness key..
it affects me when i lose my friends...
coz of reasons that sometimes are not even explained..

every month when i have my unbalanced hormones..
i get abit more emotional than usual..
and i miss them even more....
miss all the memories that we shared from hatred to friends and yea back to enemies....
which i never wanted..
but i guess ppl change...for worse or for the better..
but i hope someday they will still be a part of the friendship just like the old times...

i've never forgotten all the good deeds rendered to me
especially when i'm in need...
thank you for being there as a friend...to lost friends

2011-02-24T23:35:00.002+08:00

well the fact that i have good taste in food..
defines and displays in the body shape...
good food may come in all sorts of monetary values..
cheap to expensive....
i can literally dine in expensive restaurants...or even sit at a kopitiam
as long at the food is good...

currently i've been craving good molten chocolate cake...
not too much of bitter chocolate or milk chocolate..
the right consistency of moist cake....and not burnt
the last i had was for my bdae celebration where i had it with rahman at TCC...
ooo gosh! i cant wait for the next seek out food adventure again!=)

2011-02-23T23:01:00.003+08:00

well did i mention that i'm very creative in a sense...
hahahaha..
i was just thinking of my this year awesome bdae celebration..
if i ever manage to hold one...when i have the moolahs of coz!
i have a thing for candles in holders...
i have a thing for glasses with wine or sparkling juice...
i have a thing for picnics....flower petals..and water...

thus i was like fixing all these wonderful ideas of a celebration for me!!
hahahahahaa..in my head obviously...
i was just thinking of getting my own suite with my own small little pool...to soak our feet in bubbles....
if not the hotel must have a pool..and let us use the pool if they can allow to us to so....
thus the option 1 seems better....
with soothing song in the background...lotsa sweet stuff to munch on...
candles by the swimming pool or a section...those scented kind...
the smells of strawberries,lavender, wafting in the air......
glasses of drinks....with sparkling juice...that is chilled if not i shall bring my own blender
and make virgin margaritas(non-alcoholic)!!! =) =)
goodness...this is getting very interesting....
lil roasted chicken sandwiches....with little flags that has a red heart on it...
all by the pool!!!
and of coz a dedicated song sang by the boyfriend during that period...
all these happening by the skylines...of the evening...

soooo preeeety and amazingly small lil party for me...
with all my closest friends....
playing all those stupid games....
goodness it's just sooo preeety...!!!! weeeee!!!

trying to distract myself from the exams abit..
hehehehehe
looooooove my brain at times....

2011-02-21T22:12:00.003+08:00

Isit very wrong of me to be bitter and full of envy everytime i hear bout unis and degrees...
like asking for my opinions...
everytime that i hear when's the convocation coming up...
or like hows ur uni life at the moment..

isit wrong for me to feel bitter???
i'm just wondering...i feel guilty for not being happy for them..
but i just wished sometimes life was abit more simpler for me to handle....
seriously....

2011-02-19T13:11:00.002+08:00

I think love works in a very mysterious way...
don't you think so??
there are no rules and regulations to be in love..
we can't judge anyone who are in love...
fate lies in his hands...
you can be married and u fall in love with some one else...
maybe coz you fall in love with the wrong guy...
or things like that...
if its meant to be....it comes in all the different ways...
and in all different means...
been watching too many love movies lately...
it just got me thinking...

we are soo used to being told what's right but what if it's not...
coz it just seem to be the right thing to do...told by the parents.....
for me....i would be happy chasing my dreams...
coz i know at the end of day..self satisfaction and achievement...
is one of the happiest feeling you will ever get....

2011-02-10T14:46:00.001+08:00

i'm in love with my small mini ribbon hairband!
soooo sweeet..=)

2011-02-10T12:38:00.002+08:00

It's the 7th month for us....
time has really been that fast....

despite all the hardcore arguements.....
and all the shouting...
i screamed and hurled at him....
he's still here staying put...

my dream ring!...
well i just have to throw it out the window..
tiff & co. is just not gonna happen....since it's tooo ex...
thus i shall just look for a replica..to satisfy it...

2011-02-07T13:46:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel like i'm a different person in 1 body...
i knew i have my other personality which i hate to show it and i will try my best to control it..
but it does go out of control at times....

i do have my jealousy side and the temperamental bitch in me...
that's the evil side whom does come out whenever i sort of lose control...
it does come out when i bottle things up too frequently...
or i dont get my way most of the time..
i get angry when ppl take me for granted and takes advantage of it....
and take it soo easy that they treat me like a fool sometimes...
hate those feelings...but i cant help it when ppl dont understand...

2011-02-03T21:35:00.002+08:00

Everytime i watch a war movie..
i always be awe by all the strategic moves, the battle fields...
it is just so brilliant...
i can just watch it for hours...without a blink..

currently i've been a die hard fan of chinese war movies..
the dynasty kind...
sooo coool:)..
thanks to channel 8 i get to watch Red Cliff which i miss watching in the movies...

2011-02-02T00:59:00.003+08:00

Have you ever felt soo frustrated after a quarrel with your love..
you feel like screaming profanities and stomp on your feet..or jump around just going crazy..
as you're boiling inside to the maximum....
i've felt it before and it drove me to insanity...
coz u're sooo angry and yet u feel sooo in love with him

that is how madly in love i am with you...
you drive me insane at times....but yet you make me fall in love with you over and over again..

the scariest part everytime i think bout us..
what if i dont get to hear you sing anymore to me...
or hug me when i'm crying..
play wrestle with me...
that is when i'm being paranoid...

and then i saw chris medina the american idol dude...
who was engaged and the fiancee got into an accident living a sad life...atm
he's sooo sweet taking care of her everydae with her mom...
before this happened...i did ask him before
wat if something tragic happened and i was not myself anymore..
will he still love me??
at first he was joking....and after awhile he said he'll love for who i am no matter what...

love can be such a pain at times..
not romantic most of the time....
but whenever i need reassurance from him about us especially..
he never fails to make me feel special and the reason he's in love right now...

it's soon to be our 7 monthsary...
loving you was never a regret...it was a blessing for me....i'm greatful for that...

2011-01-29T14:38:00.003+08:00

I'm going crazy thinking about LRM DnD....
looking at make-up and hairstyles....
clothes...:)..
the fact is i love dressing up....
occasionally..not all the time thou!

2011-01-27T12:25:00.002+08:00

I totally miss the presence of a brotherly love....
i miss sharing stories of my relationships....hanging out shopping....
talk about the pretty girls that passed us....
having a smoke of sheesha...
and jus chilling the nite away...

i missed the part when u always tell me everythings going to be okie...
i miss the part when you love ruffling my hair....
i miss the part of your lil secrets sharing...
i miss the part when we watched jabbawockees together on different computers at different places....
i miss the nightly chats....
and u calling me fatty.....

and all's gone now...
we drifted apart after the final vows...
but i felt it coming when i was the one who placed your henna on your fingers....
and making sure your clothes and buttons were fixed properly..
the songkok was not forgotten...
and within a few hours...i lost my brother...
the only closest feeling i had of a real brother....

and now i cant share and tell you...i've found my love...
and how wonderful he has been....
and to bring him to meet you....so that we can slack again....
i miss you abg.....

2011-01-25T23:14:00.002+08:00

Photos, videos...
are all the captures of memories..
so that moments can never be erased in our human brains...

i've always wanted a music video of me and my boyfie...or husband..
those happy moments captured or at least i can remember if one day i start having dementia in my old days....
someone can just replay the video for me to watch everydae..
just some random thought.....

i love the couple's music video...
great nice editing as well...:)

2011-01-06T23:27:00.002+08:00

I'm really happy for being able to spend New Year eve with you...
with a great weekend bbq after that...
before the start of school...

it has been a great beginning for 2011..
alhamdullilah...
i hope to have more great news to share with....

i'm soo blessed meeting you after sooo long..
it took me that long to notice...
bt you still did not gave up and continued to befriend me....

I love you boyfie!

2010-12-31T02:40:00.004+08:00

Let's SUM UP my 2010!!!!

it started horribly at first!!:p!

i failed my freaking accounts and had to re-take it the 2nd semester....

got an internship at Jurong Bird Park, under the Advertising and Promotions Dept!
learned loads of things under my BOSS...
i've made loads of friends there as well...
still am working with the park however under a different department....

got attached with Farid but turns out...we didnt last long(1 month)
but well i guess we just couldnt get things to work out....

took a break from relationship...
made more friends...
enjoy my life!!!

and there i met my new love!
whom i had no faith in the beginning thinking it's gonna be the same..
but you proved me wrong..and NOW!! i love you sooo much i cant let go of you...

soooo YOU'RE MY BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPEN IN 2010!!
and i will never ever forget that....
thank you baby...
you sum up 2010 just a little bit too nicely:)

2010-12-28T01:05:00.002+08:00

what keeps my going despite all the pressure...

those words that will always ring inside my head...
those whispers you always say it over and over again...

"you're my life..i dont noe what i'll do without you...."

it takes alot for a guy to whisper those words....
and you make the statement true...
behind every successful man...there's a woman supporting him..
and i'll always do that coz i love you.....

2010-12-20T22:43:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling really anxious now...
it's because my baby is happily sleeping...
and i'm missing him badly...
he's sick....with a high fever...
poor baby...
wish he can really get well sooon....
am missing him badly and it's been days since we met:(
it hurts when you love somebody huh...

at times i do ask whether i really love him..
especially when i'm very angry with him
and the answer deep down is i do...
it's because there is never a moment that passes by without him in my mind...
and when he's not around the feeling missing hurts madly...
gosh dear...you really make a crazy woman at times...
its because i'm crazy in love with you...

2010-12-19T16:27:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wish that people could bloody hell read!!
it's been a hell of rollercoaster ride at work...
i've been receiving endless calls....
and my ear drums are ringing...

it's craaazy i must say with all the nonsensical questions i can ever get...

school is currently driving me to the end of the hill top ready to jump..
i have been eating,sleeping,walking,working,bathing with projects on my mind...
even work is not as hard as this...
i mean i dont have to score well...
it's do and meet datelines....with no grades involved...
100% easier i must say...

christmas is around the corner...
and usually i love it sooo much...
but this year has been a pretty busy year for me...
christmas is not as much fun..
i've yet to even step to orchard with the busy mode on...

looking forward to my date with love
he promised to take me on a walk through the endless orchard street of lights...
photos and more photos hopefully with my baby....

and soooooon!!
it will be our 6th anniversary:):)
how time flies.... i love you baby....

2010-12-08T23:37:00.001+08:00

Look at that!!!
sooooo preeeetty....
it's a black and white dais...
can improve on it..
but it's near perfect..

but yea...guess my black theme wedding is not in favour with <3!
haish....soooo sad...

2010-12-08T22:48:00.002+08:00

It's a really nice pleasant surprise
when i meet you and there's a present in your hand..
this happens once a month...
but it's been really making me smile from ear to ear:):)

My collection of presents so far:
1) black ripcurl wallet
2) silver high-cut sneakers, brown/gold earphones/Ferraro rocher limited edition chocolates
3) hershey's chocolates
4) body shop gift set(perfume + bodywash)

thank you sayang.....i know i've not been able to give presents...
but i hope that i've given enough love to make you happy:)!
coz i do.....

2010-12-06T22:42:00.001+08:00

I hope my superman gets well soon..
he's been hit by the flu bug for sometime..
but have been resisting it..
i hope u really get well love...

In 2 more hours to go...
Happy 5th Anniversary darling...
I love you...
and it's only you....

2010-12-02T00:26:00.002+08:00

At times...you just needed your own private space..
after sooo long of not waking up late..and getting the whole house to yourself..
it was just a freaking AWESOME feeling....
i studied in peace..or in my own way...
and yea blasted music the whole house...

no matter how much at times that i dont want to meet you..
coz i'm just dead tired from school or work..
or i just wanted my time alone..
but i still meet you up...coz...it still makes our dae
i still love it..coz i get to cuddle up

despite how our meet ups can be sometimes....
abit heartbreaking coz we end up quarreling or fighting...
i still cant help it.....
i end up meeting you...
it's coz u just enter my life drastically
and you intentionally or not..has become the crucial part of my daily life....

and tonight..
when you asked me..
ayg...miss me eh?
i do..coz i wont be able to hear your voice before i sleep...
and yes it's true..i'm still quite alive and kicking without a single yawn...

*you always mention what would i do without you...
likewise for me...what would i do without you mohamed akbar bin shaik osman!

2010-11-19T21:44:00.003+08:00

Kasihmu
Di luar jangkaanku
Sulit rasanya hidupku tanpamu
Usah kau pergi jauh

Aku berjanji
Cintamu ku bawa mati
Tak inginku mula cerita baru
Diriku teruntuk kamu

Setiap nafasku
Berpesan padamu
Jangan pernah
Tinggalkan diriku

Sentiasa hadir
Di jalan hidupku
Yakini cintaku
Untuk kamu

Aku menanti
Ketibaan hari itu
Saatnya kau mengucap cinta sejati
Dua menjadi satu

Aku mengerti
Kata-kataku percuma
[ Nafasku lyric found on www.lirik.my ]
Hingga tiba suatu masa
Semuakan menjadi nyata

Setiap nafasku
Berpesan padamu
Jangan pernah
Tinggalkan diriku

Sentiasa hadir
Di jalan hidupku
Yakini cintaku
Hanya untukmu

Sentiasa hadir
Di jalan hidupku
Yakini cintaku
Untuk kamu

Untuk kamu ku serah segala
Untuk kamu ku beri bahagia
Untuk kamu ku janji setia
Untuk kamu...

Aku berjanji
Cintamu ku bawa mati
Tak inginku mula cerita baru
Semuanya untuk kamu

I love when you start kissing on my cheek...
very hard and a long one...
coz that's when i know you love me loads.....

2010-11-03T22:09:00.002+08:00

the feeling of missing my baby evenmore now..
is just exhilarating....
doesnt mean that i never miss him before..
it's just the excitement of the feeling when the hell is my baby going to msg me or call me...when he's coming back...

baby!!
i freaking miss you!!

2010-10-31T16:08:00.001+08:00

i'll scream GORGEOUS!!! to this design...
pretty-pretty design from Yangs by Hee Deuk(Korean designer)
*dreams on! :(

2010-10-31T15:55:00.001+08:00

I love the freaking dress...
it's definitely my style...
i love the pockets draping out...
love the cut of the dress..
it's simple yet fabulous!

2010-10-30T15:04:00.002+08:00

Every single day last time i used to get really upset whenever the thought of a particular ex came into my mind.....
coz the fact that maybe i've not gotten over them makes it even harder....

but eversince this irritating bugger: my love
came into the picture(he's irritating at times, but sweet all the time)
i've stopped getting upset over my ex...
and yup put the past behind me!

i love that achievement......
woooohooooo! :):)

BEING SICK!!
is not at all awesome...
i've been sick the whole week..
and what i want to do is just lay down like a sick puppy...
eat medicine...drink soup/porridge and sleep...
under the blanket....

2010-10-28T19:37:00.001+08:00

i love bus rides...
no matter how far how slow it is...
bus rides are my therapy sessions without doubt
it makes me go into stoning zone..
looking at the ppl,cars,trees passing by..
is just sooo awesome!

and my bus rides with <3 cant get any better than this....

2010-10-18T20:51:00.002+08:00

Remember when we were in the bus..
and the song was playing on the radio..
we hum and sang the song to each other...
and lookin into each other eyes

i will never forget that moment..
not once, not a bit..never...
coz everytime i look at you...
i will have this at the back of my mind...

Kau tercipta untukku....

I love you bucuk,gemok,love,ayg,sayang...and my baby...

2010-10-18T12:39:00.003+08:00

Is it very hard to be in a relationship?
Is it very hard to talk things out?
Or am I just too dumb to even understand how these things work..

Everytime when i want to talk it out with you...
you make me feel soo dumb or guilty...
ending up i usually kept quiet...
coz i dont know what else to tell you...

there's alot of reasons why i've been trying to work part-time
while schooling and having relationships...
1st thing, i cant live from my parents 24/7
there are things i need the extra cash for...
eventhou i'm always broke by the end of the month without savings..
getting complaints from mom for the lack of money on my side....
and still being silent about the whole thing not explaining the whole issue to her..
i did but it doesnt help that she doesnt understand the situation as well..

how do i explain this to him..
that i wont neglect our relationship..
and he has to trust on this..
that i'm doing this coz i dont want to burden him further..
or others....haish if only i can get through to him....

2010-10-17T20:24:00.003+08:00

I pray to you everynight...
for me to be able to find my love....
and now you've granted my prayers
please don't take him away from me...

i'm grateful to you for all that i've got..
despite all the hardships..
but i realise the more hardships i got

i just hope and pray that my love will always be healthy
and fine....
strong and happy always...
and to achieve whatever he wants
and i'll be happy when he's happy....

2010-10-16T22:26:00.002+08:00

It's been a great getaway with love..
i've felt sooo refresh, pampered and loved by him..
it was just a unforgettable feeling that i don't want to leave Genting behind..

Being truly in love with him is just such a blessing...
i've got no words to describe how i'm feeling..

it's nver a smooth journey for us..
we have our own mini squabbles and fights...
but at the end of each day..he makes me smile again..
knowing my weaknesses...my loves..my hates..
i truly appreciate his effort and his love...

P.S. i can't wait for more happy moments shared between us...ILY!

2010-10-12T23:40:00.002+08:00

i really gotta post them up...
they're such a cutie duo!
probably i guess that they're twins...
and their voices compliments one another..
lovely ain't they..
superb videos from them..
check them out yo!:p

P.S.i'm freaking counting down to having our phonecalls followed by our getaway...
ooooo gosh damn the tv channels...and damn the time for being soooo uber slow!

2010-10-12T23:30:00.002+08:00

I've gotta say it's time for the credits to roll to this singer
well he brought back old school into his music videos..
very nice touch..cool tunes to hum to or jus sway to..
my kinda genre...

his music video has since make me smile...
Love you Bruno!

2010-10-11T13:16:00.002+08:00

When boredom arrives...
this is what happens...i got really vain while dressing up...
and i took vanity shots of myself!:p

yesterday ended up really sweet...
i rarely hear you say that to me....
cept thru sms-es...
but hearing those words in reality...
i cant help myself from loving you more....

2010-10-08T13:46:00.001+08:00

I wish to be able to hold you in my arms and make everything better...
kiss all that troubles away...
take you in a different world just you and me...
and make you smile and laugh your hearty smile...
i love you <3...

2010-10-06T14:51:00.000+08:00

One of my favourite songs....
superbly nice:)

2010-10-03T23:54:00.002+08:00

In life..
you're my precious thing ever....
and it's worrying when i dont hear from you or anything like that...

i may not be good at telling stuff..
or express myself in words....
as hard as i try..
but you never know how much it hurts me to see you like that..
you may say nothing's bothering you..
but looking at you i know there's sooo much going through your head..
as much as i want..
i would want to take that pain in your eyes away..
the uncertainty,the doubts,the troubles, the stress every negative thought in your eyes....

if only i have the power to do so...
i would just take it away from you and make it better...
the reason i woul never want to leave you is because i cant bear to..
coz i love you..
coz i need you..just as much as you love me and when you need me...

oo god..
how i wish so much for things to get better...
you wouldn't know how much tears i shed...
coz it hurts me as much....

2010-10-03T23:49:00.002+08:00

I may not be the perfect girl around..
full of mistakes and weaknessess....
but i know deep down..i want to make it perfect for you...

I pray really hard every night before i go to sleep..
that things will get better for us...
so that i can keep seeing you smile...
with no sleepless nights...

2010-09-27T21:56:00.002+08:00

Our first raya together...25th Sept 2010..
may there be more rayas to come...

you make me feel like i'm the only girl u ever love..
you make me smile with your irrirating ways...
when the hate turns to love..
you're the only i want..
coz you make me feel like i'm the only girl in the world..

2010-09-21T11:32:00.002+08:00

Another great movie...
i love the part that she mentioned..
the only happiness in growing old with your partner..
is when he/she is also your bestfriend...
i totally agree..
coz love is not just about that kinda feeling..
but the comfort you have in a friend as well...

i could watch that movie again..
coz it's really hilarious...

and the fact that the plot..
has that lil pinch of our love story:p
makes it a whole lot of fun to watch....

*coz you're sooo one in a million:)

2010-09-19T23:11:00.003+08:00

Seriously...i think i should be a tad more independent...
i'm getting more and more dependent on him....and i'm feeling kinda like a baby...
i get restless without the constant calls or sms-es..
which is a NO!!!!for me..
is this unhealthy???

anyways........
i'm glad he's going for the DM jln raya..
i really do...
am happy he decides to..
and his close friends are the one who came over to rectify it..
i wont want my bucuk to be unhappy not even for abit:)

2010-09-12T21:02:00.002+08:00

No matter how much i wanted scream at you at times...
coz u can be a pain the ***....
no matter how much i wanted to punch u or kick u, coz i'm freaking piss off at you at times....

but no matter how piss off i am with you or angry at you...
you're the best thing i ever had.....

2010-09-09T10:24:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya!!:):)
to all my muslim friends, family!
and happy holidays to my non-muslim friends..

it's such a nice feeling this year of raya-ing..
1st time for alot of stuff..
and i'm happy to be enjoying this....

can't wait to go visiting..
especially my auntie who cooks really well..
and i miss her cookings...
yummy!!!

2010-09-06T10:14:00.000+08:00

I'm in love with my heels for raya!!!
splendid colours..
it's soooooo pretty:):):)

2010-09-05T22:06:00.001+08:00

when i look into your eyes...
it speaks alot...
and i knew i've fallen deeply madly in love with you!!

2010-09-01T11:08:00.002+08:00

Happy Teachers' Day to all teachers....
Happy birthday to my sister as well..
i almost forgot that it was her birthday....

but yea, no presents..
coz i'm always broke as well..
sooooo it's good enough that i wish u:p....

2010-08-31T16:29:00.002+08:00

I'm left with 11 days for the fasting month...
and just to perk me up and to look forward for raya(not! for 1st day)
i have decided to blast my ears with the hari raya songs...
.but the songs are the new ones or the never hear before..
so it's really boring!:(
not really into the festive mood yet:p.....

2010-08-30T16:45:00.002+08:00

I wanna sink my teeth into a juicy beef burger..
that's very-very rare of me to be talking bout beef...
or MEAT! in particular...
but i just got the sudden craving...
and this is what i'm looking for..
it must be that i'm gonna be facing my supposedly red flag period in 2 weeks time..

i just got a feeling that i'm going to have loads of cravings soon!:p....
Bucuk watch out for that okie!;p...
hahahahahahaha......

2010-08-26T22:16:00.002+08:00

It's just a fantasy...
i wish i could have access to any empty dance room...
on my music....and just dance....

remembering the times i use to hang out at Republic poly danceroom..
watching nazreen...
joining here and there abit..
she dance i sing...
or just for the fun of it i will join....
youth days are going to be over soon....

i wont have this kind of luxury anymore...
back and snap into reality...

it's not fun being older as time goes by...

2010-08-26T21:00:00.002+08:00

my heart keep beating...
in an unusual way...
it's not a bad feeling..
just anxiousness....

haish...
just hope it's all alright...

2010-08-26T00:13:00.003+08:00

The reason my words could be blunt to others..
is sometimes to shut them up...
coz i am just plainly not in the mood to argue..
or i dont see eye to eye with them...
these are the reasons why my words could sometimes sound very hurtful...

it's hard trying to defend what you think or what you believe..
it's hard trying to justify what you always want in life...
ppl might say i have the worse experience in lovelife coz it's always been sucky
but that doesnt mean i have to follow the rules and regulations of what you peeps think are right to do for a relationship....

that's the reason why i dont really share stuff bout my personal life much with you peeps...
i rather be the 1 silent...
coz i know deep down what i have i'm happy with..
what i'm experiencing now is just unexplainable...

that's part 1 of the story..the reason why i'm not myself around you guys...

i dont really like it when you say let's not talk bout it...
i've always try to be diplomatic as i can...not towards you..but to everything i have to face
and avoiding issues is never a thing i'm comfortable with...
and yea i end up being quiet and silent again...
which a thing i'm sooo good at....
i just wish we cld talk about stuff patiently...
it could be something hard...but it's the best way so that it does not linger in the mind...

sometimes i wonder if you think i never have that much feelings for you...
but deep down only god knows how much it is....
how much i've given my heart...
eventhough it took time...

it's about us..
just you and me.....
cruising this life...

2010-08-25T13:52:00.002+08:00

the fact that i love taking photos..
is just inevitable...
i miss the times when i just walk around taking snapshots
using just my digi...
but as time goes by..

i want to have my own dslr...
so that i can just snap photos whenever i want to..
or during my boring days...when i can just walk alone..
and do my own stuff..

and i promise that will be my priority..
when i have the cash...
which i dont noe when..
but yea.....
taking photos is therapeutic...

being a photographer was like a sideline dream...
hahahaa....i have loads of dreams i wanna fulfil...
but yea...sometimes in life it's hard having not able to live it..

2010-08-23T21:39:00.002+08:00

Music is universal..
and i stay true to that..
i am not limited to just english or malay songs..
but i listen to anything that is nice..
chinese, korean, pinoy...anything that manage to catch my attention
and i'm good at like copying other languages without knowing the lyrics...
was hooked on to korean songs when i was in early sec sch days...
now it's getting popular by day..
especially the rnb, hip hop korea...
and there's this 1 guuy who is super hot...
and i'm hooked onto the song wedding dress by taeyang:

i always love a guy who carry street style really nice...
especially with good nice shades/aviators...
i cant find a good photo...
but it's just what i love...

and...i'm getting in love with this radii shoes for the girls:

2010-08-23T15:34:00.002+08:00

Step Up 3
was just awesome till the last bits of it..
I cant get enough of it..
and every second of the dance routines kept me on the edge..
and i wanna just stand up and yea..move to the rhythm..
it's been quite some time i've been doing abit of dancing...
or the matter of fact..videos of me singing...

sooo yea..after watching Step Up 3...
felt like hitting the dancefloor...
especially one particular scene when they did a dance routine
very chi-chi..and the song..that was nice..
i cant get the specific scene..
but this is just to whet your appetite!
if you have not catch it on the movies...

2010-08-23T15:27:00.002+08:00

I can't help it when you're fasting..
all you think about is good stuff...
good FOOD in particular!!

soooo...
i've not gotten enough of cheese fries!(best things on EARTH!)
and i've not tasted chocolate milkshake for ages...
and it seems like such a nice fulling drink to go by during the break fast...
it will be sooo cooling and yummy!:)

and thank you <3!
for the treat at Mad Jack..
big portion of chicken....
ermmmm...yummy....
sorry you cant finish your food due to your teeth problem..
but hopefully!...you can enjoy more stuff..
when your toothache is better:)

2010-08-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

An article by Andi S Green:

When a man loves you it will be glaringly obvious to you. You will have no need to look at a check-list to see. Looking at check-lists will only be there for you to look at and laugh at because every sign you see written about will probably be exhibited by your guy. If you are looking at a checklist to convince yourself that your man loves you then unfortunately it is not to be. If your man exhibits some of the signs, he may like you but he isn't in love with you.

Men in love go a bit crazy. Actually they just don't leave you alone. You will have no time to question whether they love you because you will be so busy being inundated with their constant phone calls, text messages and of course, visits in person! Every chance they have to be with you they will be! If they can snatch 5 minutes on their lunch break to talk to you then they will do.

Also men in love just can't help telling you. They tell you how proud they are of you. They tell you how relaxed you make them feel. They tell you this at any time of the day, even when you are doing the mundane of household tasks, not just when they are in bed with you. You are the one and they never ever compare you to anyone else. Of course all men do look discreetly at other women but the one who loves you makes sure that you know that you are the sexiest woman around and in his eyes always will be.

A man who loves you just can't help being tactile around you. Its any excuse to hug you, tickle you, caress you. The relationship is just so physical and he wants to make love to you whenever he can. He wants to please you physically and make you happy.

When your man loves you, notice how he listens to you. He hangs on to your every word. He constantly encourages you as you talk and reassures you. He gives you eye-contact and when he looks at you he is slightly dreamy and his eyes are softer than when you first met.

The man that loves you will very rarely let you down or disappoint you. If he says he will meet you at a certain time he will do. He will always return your calls and be there for you.

The problem with looking into signs of love is that a crafty cad can try to imitate the verbal and physical aspects of loving you mainly as a means of sexual conquest or using you. So only take the verbal and physical signs of a man loving you seriously if he backs up what he says with loving actions. When you are ill does he go out and buy cough remedy for you? When you suddenly come on a period will he go out and buy sanitary towels for you? Does he massage your back if you have period pains. Basically does he go out of his way and do things he doesn't really want to do? If he does, its a sure sign that he loves you above any other sign.

If he loves you, he will have shown you to his family and friends. Also you will come first in his life. If you are with him and his friend calls to ask him out, he will politely refuse because he prefers to be with you.

Finally does he also put his money where his mouth is? Does he buy you presents and flowers. does he take you on holiday? His willingness to share his money with you, unless he is superbly rich and has money to burn, shows that you are an important part in his life.

2010-08-15T23:10:00.002+08:00

love was being such a sweetie...
he planned on getting me the iphone 4!!!
which is to be discussed further after raya..
due to the fact the specs of iphone 4 and 3 has its own advantages..
and i promised to be updated of the review..
i dont want to be bounded by a phone that will give me loads of probs:(

but yup...i cant wait to have the baby in my hands..
basically coz i will be putting in games to keep me occupied
and since i'm not selfish..
i shall share the baby with love...
coz i knew he wanted 1 for himself..
bt his current phone is literally good as it is..
and such a waste to have a new phone:):)

weeeee!!!
thank you love for all the pamperings:p

2010-08-11T22:21:00.002+08:00

guess who called me with his trembling voice as usual..
my MR chinese dude....
who has decided to call me back..
thinking i've cooled down....
i almost burst in laughter due to his tremble..
but well that's okie...it's great that it took u some gut to talk to me!
i felt triumphant for once...

bitter chocolate/bucu/dino/love/sayang...
has just made my National Day happy!:)
spent quality time with the mates...
had loads of fun
had loads of baby crying, cranky moment of Satria...
and also cranky moment from love himself....
but nevertheless...it was the BEST FIREWORKS experience!!!:):)
thank you love...
for trying to make special moments and quality time together..

2010-08-09T10:51:00.002+08:00

it's been a great 1 month for us...
despite the squabbles and never-ending cranky moments...

there's always something new to venture into...
and my friends have been yours...
while your friends have been mine:.....

National Day at Ritz Carlton today!!
watching fireworks from the higher level...
good slacking moments....
wearing red... and having fun
despite all the unconfirmations of celebrating National Day...
it was back to Ritz...with the DM family...
cant wait people!! lotsa photo-taking..
and happy fun moments!!

P.S. i love the way you call me beautiful...
i love the way you love my smile...
and best of all..i love the way you see my imperfections never wanting to change it...coz it's the perfect me....:)

2010-07-30T11:55:00.002+08:00

What is your type of guy???

For me, I just got into my head
that i love and easily for in love and infatuated with guys
who look native american(red indians) look..
with the sharp features and bronze/ tanned skin tone...
this could include guys who are burmese looking, thai, or pinoy....
as they fit the category.....

2nd...i love chinese dudes...
due to the fact sometimes they dress better..
and they speak english more...

third....
i love going for the mix look of the north indian
or arabs....
just looking hot there:P...

so the point where i realise i do have a certain type of look that i like for guys...
was when my MR bucuk...
declared this in a sad tone...
"i know i'm not your type"
and i started laughing....
i was like how would you know my type..
and he notices whenever I exclaimed a cute/hot guy
that includes the exclaims of JACOB is soooo cute...
it is those 3 criterias.....
what an observant bf i have....
pooor dude....:p